4.27.2009!
HandWritten on; 6:02 AM
Hmm, how should I start blogging? Well, direct -- I realise my ex 劈腿, one leg step two boat...
Well, some people might be confuse... Isn't me and my ex Jeffery Fok (the one working at Rav) already ended long ago? Ya, so sorry to hide it all the way... The fact is: we still in the relationship, but we never meet up for like 2 months plus due to or busy schedule... To me, my heart for him already dead. But we never really mention the word "break". So, when sms or calls, he still call me dear or darling, wadever shit names...
And I admit my part too... for the extra feeling I've for another guy... so, maybe i can't blame him for stepping two boats.
After dragging these for so long, God gave me a chance to let everything ended with a full stop. And this chance also let me realised what a fool I've being.
As usual, sunday is my ex's sleeping day... But occassionally, he'll meet up with me.. So as usual practice, I called him.. No answer... Fine... Yup, then I used my spare line (hi-card number) to call him. Guess what, he answered! And he's outside, clubbing.
I used another girl's name to sms him, to see where is he... And you know what is his reply? I'm at Thai Disco with my girlfriend... wanna join?
Girlfriend? Aint suppose your girlfriend is me?? And later part, his "girlfriend" called asking me to join... without knowing i'm edelynn, his girlfriend or rather ex-girlfriend.
This is very complicated.... I couldn't blame him for stepping two boat at the same time, but... He still call me dear / darling when he borrows or take money money from me... He still joke and laugh with me.. Not long, jus a day before i realised this fact.
So....??
Taking my money and spend it with another girl? What the hell.... He'll have his retribution, and once I get the thing I wanted... I'll do all things for revenge. Forgive my evil heart, forgive my childishness. I must make him lose face, and not letting people get hurt again.
Guang scolded me for my foolishness.
Wil blamed me for being naive.
Chris said I should have realised long ago.
I regreted...
I got betrayed... I trust him so much since he say he'll change and start to save up... den? I believe him saying he's busy thats why never meet up, den?
Its money issue. Now that I dared to include his names and place or work, I already hack care him... let his reputation gone ba...
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