Finally had a good day rest. But it had eaten my school hours... So i missed sch today. Hah, didnt really get to sleep well for past 4 days, starting from Wed, everyday 3,4 hours of sleep... Den today in coma, only get to wake up at 9.45am... Shiok, esp its raining... Woo hoo~

Two movies for this weekend.

Saturday watched Nacho Libre with Des.



Hah, a stupid and lame movie. No much comments, but at least it create laughters, but its somehow to lame to be funny. Had dinner at Crystal Jade... and aft tat headed to Hougang for Roti prata...




Next day. Not really in a good mood. So blue, so moody.. Wad's wrong? It lasted for the whole day, wad are the tears doing man! SOmething wrong with my tear ducts? Haiz,den gastric again after having Tom Yam as my first meal of the day. Shucks. Luckily it didnt ruin my mood for my movie.

Anyway, i noe the day's unhappiness i've my own fault too.. Always so negative, so sensitive... And always want things to be in a certain way... If not, i keep sayig u've change, etc... Haiz, but again... Everthi jus form up to be one big piece and its the end of story... =(




Dragon Tiger Gate. Yea, its Nicholas Tse, my idol wen im in Primary school. Still as cool and charming... And i really lurve his smile... It cheer me up alittle la, wen see him smile.. Lalala..


And it makes me blur... I tot Nicholas Tse is in two roles. But im wrong ya? Cuz Shawn Yue and him look so alike. And it creates my doubt who Donnie Yen is then. Lol. Stupid me. Just take a look in the above banner of Dragon tiger Gate, the guy in the extreme right, doesnt it looks like Nicholas Tse? But its not eh, his Shawn Yue.


And its really a nice movie. The martial arts skills, although its abit exaggarate, but its really cool. And the touching scene wont make u fall asleep, its touching. Esp seeing Nicholas and Donnie's brotherhood love, and the lady who sacrifice herself for the one she love... Nice... And i seriously dun mind watching it again~! =D

Yea, and thanks to jeff for making me laugh with that stupid jokes... And the spilling of beer on his own clothing, after tat put on a jacket with his 3/4.. lol... Free entertainment.. So nice...

Yea, and i've some counselling session. Thanks for everythi, the accompany, the luaghters and those stupid jokes.

A tiring week. Slept a total of 6 hours for the past 2 days. And today, wen it reaches 8am i start to have my eyes open widely, cant sleep..

Okay, Thursday went to Changing Appetite with Jeff, cuz i owned him a meal (thanks to the World Cup) and heard from quite many ppl tat the food over there not bad, so i gave it a try. Yea, its great. My Spice Me Up (Black Pepper sphagetti with slice chicken and chilli) - Nice. And Jeff's Salmon Bally... Nice too. Haha... And after the nice food, we headed to Shawn's workplace... And it started his another drinking night.. Haiz, dun understand man, why so many troubles and unhappinese? Okay.. Den home at 2am, and forced to eat supper with them. =(

Brought myself a blouse, finally. i simply likes it. And glad that people had comment tat it looks nice. And oh ya, oni the above 22 yrs old said that its nice. Great~!




Thanks for the picz =)




Next day, had 2 hours of sleep and crawl up.. Woo, thanks to the kind soul who morning call me... Haiz, its suppose to be me giving you morning call.. And you didnt sleep for the whole nite?! It really worries me, esp aft i do my research on mental disorder - which aso incl Insonmia and Depression.

Dragonboat at Kallang Water Sports Center. Regreted that I had not bring extra clothings. Regreted tat i've not participated in it. Haiz. Thanks to some ppl lehz, didnt wait for me and depart without me... =( hmph. Ok. Its alright. Enjoyed it anyway...


Sailing far far away~


The 6 ABCDEF~

Den at night, force my eyes to open widely. Pretence. Pretend im okay.. Yea, cant put on a long face while at work ma. And ytd is an nitemare. The workplace. Adults seems to be complicated, stubborn in the persoanlity, highly dominion, muz be in a muz-win situation, and even it means tat u'll offend others, eg, your valued customer. He's jus a devil, after he got tipsy and drunk. Oh not jus a him, is two him. Boss and manager. Both. Drunk. Causes troubles to so many people... And the innocent Jeff... Fine. Knock off at 2am and have a sweet nite dream...

Okay... End of post... Waiting to go out for movie... Today's Saturday! Not workin today, fortunate~ Today is the 2nd espisode of wad happen ytd, haiz. All the best.

Doing research for the web publishing project… oh my god.. why am I still touching web design stuff?! Quit my IT course for 1 yr now still gotta touch html thingy, although tis time is on dreamwaver, but its still a phobia for me to design website… -.-" well... although this not my 1st web design project, but its still somehow tough for me... I cant dl Dreamwaver at home.. =( and, my design skills for website shucks. Especially formal layout.

So did research on the topic Mental Health, and exploring various illness... Mmm, these interest me... esp i knew someone might be involve in these prob... Well, mental illness or mental problem doesnt 100% means you are mad or insane... some of us hv certain symptoms too... =X it jus mean tat u're ill, and need treatment, unless your illness is acute, where u might turn violent and hurt others...


School re-open for 3 days alr... And great tat i hvn missed any day of lesson yet. But im real late for this morning lesson tat teacher didnt bother to mark me as present... =( These 3 days were quite a tough one for me... especially alternate days got to work, and gets a max of 5 hours of sleep on those days... No one is there to morning call me anymore... Gotta depend on myself, and my dearest alarm... Haiz...


Tats all... Apology for the boring post... Leaving for work, again... Haiz...

Wad's the thingy tat made u smile wenever u wake up? And before sleep?

Something is going to be different, soon... (maybe?) =) Finally got the ans and clear all doubts... But i think i shouldnt reveal anythi till everythi is confirm, and / or stable down...

Ytd met up w baibeii and Guang for dinner... Pepper Lunch again... Getting alittle bored of it alr... haiz... den headed to baobeii hse to watch Jolin's Diva dvd... Yea, i missed the concert, the autograph session and everythi... =( Enjoyin her mvs esp Wu Niang, Ma De Li Bu Si Yi and Jia Zhuang... Den someone sms me.. haha... all doubts are clear... no more question marks for me alr... hehe..

Oh yes, school starting on Monday... Oh no... another time to trouble abt the handling between work and studies... wish me all the best ba... and i believe i can cope it, not in a very organise manner mayb, but i'll defintely survive... =)







and for baobeii and buddies, please see the melodious-lifes blog...

I jus had a worst nitemare... Tat really shakes me off from my bed... The story goes like this... (PS: i've change all the names)

Yea, this day... Hui, Wen, Zhi and me met up as normal for movie, and lunch too. But suddenly Hui said she cant make it,Gonna meet her frns etc... And Wen called me too saying he've some secondary school gathering... Woo... Den it left Zhi and me...

Zhi and I den met on the bus, bus 72, from Hougang heading to Tampinese...

Zhi is the main character in my dream... He's totally different as he is in real-life... In real life, he is a caring, chatty and thoughtful dude... And u'll see hw different he is as appeared in my "nitemare"...

As he board on the bus, he sat a few seats away from me... And our words were so little... Zhi den start digging his hp from his bag (he dun carry bag in real-life too =P) and start callin his pals, askin if they wanna join both of us not... Its like he's not comfortable with the two-person-outting...

Den Zhi and I went separate directions... (forgot why alr...) Wen Zhi finally called me... He was shouting over the phone... Saying that he had made several phone calls but i didnt pick up... But in fact, my phone didnt rang at all. And there's no missed calls being listed... Zhi is reluctant to tell me where he is too... Jus yelled and me and insisted that i by intention, dun wanna pick up his calls and im lying tat theres no missed call alerts.

Both us den cried over the phone... And he utter those words which is really hurtful(even its only a dream lo!) -- he said, i've being using him on this while... Takin all his care and concern towards me for granted... And I purposely dun pick up his calls jus to make him get worried... And he said he regret of knowing such a gal like me...

Den i woke up from my dream... Oh no... I know very clearly in real life Zhi aint this kind of person... But, those sentence is really hurtful... =( Zhi noes im not takin his for granted... And he wont be such an un-gentleman who vent anger on gals!


This is why ppl say dreams and reality is totally opposite...

Another boring day...

Couldnt sleep well cuz my neighbour starts to drill holes in his room... disturb me, and woke me up from my beauty sleep... And when he finally stops, the construction sites start drilling holes again... Wad a day... Maybe today is a good day stated in the lunar calender to drill holes ya?

My favourite idol Jolin Tsai would have reach Singapore now... How i hope i can attend her events... Tonight there's one at Zouk.. But i need to have the tickets to go in... And guess wad, im lookin hard for it, and someone infront of me have the ticket! I've forgotten him... he've the vip invitation card to Jolin's showcase... But he's not going... =( if he's going, den i can go w him too... But its very strange for me to hold his invitation card and go in too...

Next, auto-graph session tmr... Couldnt make it too... Cuz i've to work.. And on Friday, the Zi-Pop concert... I dun think its worth it to go cuz there's other 3 artist performing that im not really keen into la... So... Haiz... The oni highlight is the Diva's Showcase... Jeff promised to get back to me if his frn is going... But now is alr late noon... he muz have forgotten abt me! Cry! Okay... Nvm, i'll wait for the Singapore Indoor Stadium concert den...


I really apprcaite the care and EVEYTHING... =) Really thanks... You're the best! And i really miss u lots... Hah... Counting down to see you again... =x

Gastric again... Ouuch... Felt like rolling on the floor sia...

Well, watched Pirates of the caribbean w the usual group... I went all the way down to town and get the ticks lo... Lol... From Cathay, den went to Cine... Jus for the seat - not too front... Yes, its a nice show... Orlando Bloom is charming too... =)

Specially straighten my hair for the movie... lol, no la.. jus gotta tired of my hairstyle... So, borrowed mum's straightener and DIY...










Headed for supper and went to Baobeii hse...










tAts all for today... tired... i need more sleep! =p

Things happened... Making ppl angry, sad, hopeful, and disappointed... But lifes still goes on, time still flies.. And i still ahve to put on a smile on my face...





Although it wont be colourful without those promises again, but at least... I wont get disappointed or worry again... Dun come back again... Jus go... jus leave my life... Yes, we'll defintely still be friends, but pls stop telling me things... Im not good in the game... I'll be defeat easily... And falls, and get wounded... I give up, i surrender...

And yes, with this, i get to understand myself more... Who is important to me, who is not... Who i valued, who i dun... And i noe tat im progressing each day, to become stronger... Yes, from those pressure and stress from so many areas, im pushed to be strong... Push to work harder... No more time for me to sit in my room and cry... thinkin those promises u said, and break... I remember everything... From the day we met till today... I guess u too... And through all the hurts, i noe how to judge things and ppl... who are nice, who are nasty... jus like hw i judge u... whether its true or another lie... And yep, im right...

Okay, surrender... And like u said, we're friends...

I really thanks those who stood by my sides... =)

Im perfectly fine...

World Cup 2006 finally ended... Watched the finals last nite w him. Zidane headbutted his way out in the 20+ mins extra time, thrusting his forehead into the chest of Marco Materazzi and thus kena red card... If not, maybe the possibility for France to win in the penalty will be higher ba... Although i had hoped for Italy's victory, but im aint tat glad about Zidane's send-off...Materazzi acted lo, such a big and tall man, a gust of wind made him fall over??! And Materazzi who started the thingy didnt got anythi... But a redcard to Zidane? Unfair... Materazzi, i dun like uu =X Not a beautiful game won...

Jus saw my result for Business Fundamental CA... Hiaz, 78 over 100... 2 more marks to distinction... =( So sad... Really very sad... haiz...

Always wen u're not around, den alot of things happen, makin me luan and fan... Haiz... Leaving me to solve everythi and settle everythi alone... Makin me think of the days where u're around... Makin me miss u! Lol...

Haiz, actually sometimes, the existence of "problems" are created by us. Im still stubborn lo, still naive to thought there might be miracles... I know very clearly in my mind tat, he'll never be serious. And indeed, he didnt... But my heart jus keep hoping for tat and wish tat miracles will happen and wad he said will be true... Haiz... As i tot peace had arrived after someone's leaving, another storm comes again... Oh no...

Okay la... But i jus can say im no longer that me in the past liao lo... Tear duct dry liao, no more tears to cry for him... For f*** cry for him? Hmmm, i should kill myself if anythi bad happened, again... Im serious... =x

And someone jus pissed me off in MSN. Telling me thinz... About both him n him... C'mon, i understand them more than u do... Wtf telling me "if u really understand, u will noe wad step to do liao"..? I understand, is u dun understand my thinkin... Is u dunno me well... Stop assuming things and stop telin me things...

trust is a vase,Once brOken nO matter hOw lOng u tried tO fix it there will b scares & thingx wil nv b d same.. let nature & fate take cOurse if he's urs he'll b.. if he's nOt,sOmeOne better wil cOme alOng..

Watch Garfield 2 ytd, finally... I loved the show... haha... Brighten up my day, makes me keep smiling and laughing... Yea..


A nice shot taken by Baobeii... The movie we watched at TM =)

Baobeiiand guangden left for their monthsary celebration.. Hmmm... not tat des and i dun wan tag along..but its you two de monthly tian mi mi periods ma.. heh?

Yea, den went home after the meet up for soccer is cancelled... Emotional again after listening to Fang Sheng by Fan Yi Chen... Mmm... But wad really tires me is the journey back home... Walked all the way due to the removal of the bridge that will bring me home.. Haha...

The journey back home... -lonely-




But wad really freak me out is when i reach home... I saw my hall's wall been vandalise... Im so scare for the first time.. Yea, i noe wad happen.. haiz, plently of family problems... Im tired... The first tot wen i see the vandalism (sprayed) was... *?$%! WTF! And before i began to ask, my younger uncle ask me to go back to my room... Im pissed off, yet scare... Argh, and i jus shown baobeii and des the picx taken for the sprayings on my hall's wall... I figured out something damn scary on one of the pic... Not nice to post em up to my blog.. =x Dun wory, is not loanshark la... lol.. Hah, sorry for not answering the phone calls and sms... Im down that time... Haiz... troubled!

Had Pizza Hut as lunch.. Woo hoo, long didnt had Pizza Hut liao.. Yummy yummy... =)


With bAobeii, taken by des...


Familiar rite? lol..

Wishes all are well,and me too... =)

Updating songs in my new mobile phone... W800... Mmm, i finally changed phone liao... From my desire 7610 to my current W800i... So goodbye to all the memories in 7610... heh, all the smses are forced to be deleted, no choice... but yes, now i have a new W800 i can upload picx and songs alrdy! Woo hoo... Cool~

Goodbye 7610~
Memories are kept in my heart, although they're already out of my sight...





And my new phone...
Hoping that it'll helps me to create happier memories







Yea... This is the 2nd time tat I met him (again) when i involve myself of SE phone and Nokia phone... Mmm, the first very deep conversation we had is when i lost my k700i... and now, changing phone from 7610 to W800, he sms me again... Yea, and we chatted...

And talking abt my 7610... Wad happened to it? Jus blame that someone from dropping my phone... From 2 or 3 storey huh? And makes the LCD screen a big CRACK... Heartache... So ugly.. and im forced to change a phone... W800 =)


Working working working for this holiday... hoping to save up more $$ but end up.. i spend 3/4 of it on my new phone... =( scold me! Hahzz...

I guess i need some scoldings and naggings again for my stubbornity and naiveness... Yea, sweetheart... he's back~!

Im smiling... no more crying this time...

School holiday... Great... But gotta work from Monday to Fri... Sounds great ya? Can earn more $ and save up... =)

Yea, watched Superman Returns on Sat where des bookout, with baobeii, guang and meph and des.. Its a boring show! Falling asleep, nothing interest me at all! Lol... Initially wanna watch Garfield 2 one... Hah, den end up... Superman Returns... Okay lo, anyway someone gotta get me the DVD or VCD! Lalala... =p Continued the nite watching World Cup... England vs Portugal... Disappointing... England's pentalty kicks are simply lousy.. haiz... So goodbye, England... Supposed to watch Brazil vs France match w guang, but i went home instead... tired and besides got little of gastric... alittle nia, but end up in cab, argh... so painful... Consecutive 3 days gastric... its gastric, not pms k...

Den Sunday went for teo chew muay.. hmmm, no no, not a very happy dinner gathering.. dun lidat again le k... We oni gather for dinner once or twice a week, make it a happy one lo.. If u unhappy, den the rest of the ppl sitting at the same table will be affected too.. Wen u unhappy or wad, i guess it might be better to not voice out ba.. esp its during a dinner.. Correct me if im wrong.. And no ones right too in that matter.. Next day den met des for lunch n join guang n baobeii lata... And i've to leave for my work, and des preparing for booking in... Argh... U left us again...Sadded... lol... She bu de ni ah.. Its jus the 2nd bookout and we realise the change in u... hmmm... im jus alittle afraid the next bookout u'll change more and even more... =x Well, i hope how u change, or how we changed, the frnship between the four of us wont be affected, k.. =)


Yea, i jus saw somethi a few days ago... A couple of things tat let me know tat im not the "only one"... Yea, theres many other than me beside him... Im jus so jealous and started to have so many questions in my mind... Although i noe very clearly is the frnship tat i apprecaite... Hah, but im jus so jealous... I dunno why... Yes i noe i dun have the right to peep into things and ask why and what... My fault... So should remain silence... Anyway, its his freedom... Now i understand wad sweetheart and ryans mean liao... I cant make myself to step into the matter further... I wish to share this w the dearest and closest frns of mine... But i cant... oni can keep this in my heart... =(

Ah... Im fan~! Wad i wan?? Confusing.... Help me and tell me that its not wad i think~! I dunn dare to seek out for answer... Cuz truth always hurt...


My personality test rEsults :

You are SO Jealous

You can't help but doubt your boyfriend, friends, and even family You've been burned before - and it totally shows But acting like a guard dog won't keep your guy... it will only push him away Learn to trust a little more, and *all* your relationships will be better

You Should Be With an Earth Sign!

Your best match is a Taurus, Virgo, or Capricorn You'll never find a more trustworthy or loyal match!

I want u to be my teddy bear...