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10.31.2005!

HandWritten on; 4:29 AM

nah... started the day peacefully n happily... with chicken wings... hehe... den suddenly nitemare began wen benny's group comes in... Nah, its the customer wanna find fault... can see tat, aft i took back a table... find fault with me... petty.... and i can say the guys are unreasonable! argh... 1st time met tis kind of incident in partybox... u mean frns can share glass? okies, den nvm... my fault... i apologised ~ not oni one soory but i guess dere're over 10+ lor... dun accept, den sorry again... u wan me to clear away the glass, den okies fine.. i clear but before tat one more sry for u.. everythi ended n settled... they still cont to order from me n i serve em accordingly still... till the song thing come in... IS A COMMUNICATION BREAKDOWN... dere's some misunderstanding... the ye ban xiao yue qu lor... played e wrong version... den mable replace another song for em which made renjie table got 3 songs... den customer not happy... den took bag n walked away.. win le lor... the guy scold me till so jialet... MY FACE WAS SO RED N HOT! but i oni can ren... he customer wad... i aso noe i got a little wrong.. but he dun have to make until as if someone killed his beloved n scold me as if im the murderer.. First in my lifetime wen a someone scold me but i cant n nv talk back... im not in the fault totally... n the stupid petty unreasonable customer still say its cuz the renjie table pay more money... oooh... pissed off.... but luckily still have stantly... hehe... yin xiong.. =) he and jasmine helped so much... 1st time got scolded by the celina... but second time no le... she talked nicely... the customer win le lor... complain say i jus say one sorry n turned back... win le lor.. im not tis kind of ppl... n one thing... he pulled me to subway n scold me... say wad "u come u come...." den very xia lan... realii... say to ryans i dun wan pay.. i wan report case... u noe case? C-A-S-E case... = X

nah.. suan le.. tis kind of customer mark my one significant day in partybox... i'll rmb it... n will rmb those who is by my side... those who noes n believes not my fault... nah... can say everyone in partybox ytd sided me ba... xin fu huh... =) in the end celina aso nv blame me le... but i still feel so bad... bcuz of the money....

ytd was the 1st time mable stood in the same line as me wor... hehe... =)

tks stantly n jasmine... tks sweetheart too for listening to me at the di yi shi jian.... heee... love u..

10.30.2005!

HandWritten on; 4:43 AM

jus suddenly have tis tot den i write up tis blogg...

hmm... frns....

to me frns is someone who...
-accomplany by your side wen u're down...
-listen to your complains, your cryings, your jokes n your laughter...
n your frn will do alot alot of things with u de.,...

i dunno la... wad i wan say is...

some ppl tat i've met tis yr... i realii feel disapponted in em.,..
hw to say lehz..
u mean a poly drop-out cant be frns with those still in poly....??
mayb not everyone in nyp sit is lidat la...
mayb they bz,...
but wad i see n feel is the piece of daoness...

i jus wan speak up from my heart...
msg him by sms = no reply
see each other on mSn = no talk...
msn msg him== no reply
wha... i drop out poly cuz i wan change course not i kanna kick out...
i not huai ren dun have to be lidat ba...
sorry huh if tis msg offended some ppl..
but got la... got some ppl will talk de... but is i start off first... = x

anyway...
good buddy u dun need to hav a dozen of em...
jus a couple is enough.. =)
am i rite??

10.23.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:02 PM

woooh... got enuff hurts liao... den him lehz, i tink my believe twds him aso go down liao.... kk... i'll be better each day...

yea, tis coming weekend will be an enjoyable one ba... can work with jenn again... wohoho... =P den can aso mit up with jane for big feast... whaha... her treat wor... RMB TO BRING YOUR CARDS N CASH FOR PAYMENT!! i dun wan help ppl wash plates dere wor...> if u guys wondr y i say tis... haha... jus a brief summary of wad happen last sat wen we went to bugis for dinner... she forgot her atm card! n i've not enuf cash... but luckily la, ck work dere... at sony... heee... lucky... =P a little sercect == someone say he's cute wor... lolzzz

hmm... 3rd party n marriage tis 2 words kip comin to my mind n make me tink of him again... Nah, wadever he wants la... say b my bro n tak me as sis de is him... ignore my sms de aso him... wadever he wan la... i give up liao... lata ppl say me bad behind my back... =X no la... who cares... as loong as im wen xin wu gui... haha... =)

relationship is like SBS buses...

it will continue to travel twds the destination (the int),

NO U-TURNS...

so wadever nice memory u see wen u travel,

dun expect the driver to U-turn...

u can jus take it as a beautiful memory...

see it, rmb it...

--e'delynn--

HandWritten on; 5:49 AM

hmm... wen workin on frin n sat... i took a mini-survey with the partybox staff n customer... would dey believe in tis century dere's still tis thing as "force to get married"... i dunno y... i jus feel so glad wen dey say dere's tis possibility... well, but karen n michael gace me shocking answer which makes me feel tat im reali pretty stupid to believe wad he said totally... wad dey say... i guess i dun wan to publish here ba... = X

cried so badly on friday nite... wha... aft guanda incident, i've nv cried till lidat lor... 1983 de guys great lor, can make me drop tears till like sg will be flood... lolz... k la, nw i calm dwn liao... oni feel so bad on fri... My sweetheart told me, "nvm will meet a better one next time"... wha, im pissed off by tis snetence! lolz... sorry sweetheart, im not angry with u jus feel so pissed off by tis sentence... u noe... nearly 20+ to many more tell me tis sentence wen i break off with my ex... nw lehz, nw still tell me tis... i cant accept... reali... when? when is the next one... kip sayin next one next one... u mean i mus get train ah? jus like gunbound or maple story lidat huh.. get train... n one level by one level... izzit??

nah... wadever he say la.. true or false... nvm.. we nv start any relationship.. so,... dun say le la...

i admit i very naive... believe ppl super easily... n forgive em easily too.. den get emotional easily... i dun wish to b lidat ah... i gt no beautiful outlook... only have a big round ugly face... n wad i reali need is jus someone to care for me... someone i can tell him things n he can b by my side to dote me to care me n to luv me... jus wan a simple luv... from young i dun have a happy family... father isnt like father, abuse child n my mother... mother isnt my real mother, is stpe mother... i got no ppl to talk to since young... no ppl to pei me n i learn to kip all the things in my heart... cry so easily... ppl have bro n sis to talk abt their prob, but me lehz? my qin sheng ge ge left with my mother liao... all i noe was he care for me alot wen im young... tats it... dey left, but y dun bring me along? leave me with my father but he nv treat me well... reali... ppl can see me so happy outside as if im reali a easy-go-lucky... but, in my heart its not the case... he gave up on me le, i noe... i noe im not a gd daughter, but i realii feel very sorry... i jus wan someone to b by my side... i noe i've frns, BUT.... will dey reali stay by my side wenever i need em? sorry, i doubt so lor... i've already seen frns putting friendship aside wen dey have relationship le... but nvm, i wont blame dem, cuz once i was lidat too... i wan study too ah, but who's going to pay for my sch fees? i dun wish to work nite life while studyin too de my sweetheart jenn... but, i reali gt no choice... no ppl will pay for me de... i jus will believe ppl easily lor... tis is a stupid me... utterly stupid...

10.20.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:36 PM

刚好我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧在错的时候情路上遇到

为什么只和你能聊一整夜
为什么才道别就又想再见面
在朋友里面就数你最特别
总让我觉得很亲很贴

友达以上恋人未满
甜蜜心烦愉悦混乱

我不相信都动了感情却到不了爱情
那么贴心却进不了心底 (dun believe but its the truth!)

忽然不想让你知道　你的爱我已经戒不掉
就让思念淹没　我不想逃

我想她的确是　更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事

你和他的未来　喔肯定很精采

如果我　退回到　好朋友的位置 (or even stragers)
你也就　不再　要为难成这样子

地球上　两个人　能相遇不容易　作不成你的情人我仍感激

希望你真的快乐就算从今后　失去联络

终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍你的手却放不开

你走吧　别挣扎　
我也该放下就让曾经灿烂的每一天　麻醉每一吋的痛

我吻过你的脸　你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点

我们曾用爱互相依靠　付出多少不用计较

爱上了你之后我从来不哭谁是谁的幸福　我从来不在乎

直到有天你我年老　回忆随着白发风中闪耀
至少我清清楚楚知道　你若想起我会微笑

也许心碎是爱情最美的样子

我们曾紧紧拥抱却又轻易地方掉
那种感觉很微妙

tis is my 2nd post for the day liao...
dear visitor pls tak note...
;)
dun worry, im fine...
even if i cry i aso will wipe my tears k...
no worries for me...

HandWritten on; 10:05 PM

Story had ended. Ya, jenn is rite, and he's rite, and im sensible enough too... Wad we left for each other de mite be ke xi tat luv each other but cant b toget... but, we had left precious memories too... simple holdin hand, hugs n..... mayb i shouldnt reveal so much ba, cuz in ppl's eye im a 3rd party... i dun wish to ruin ppl's marriage de... but u noe, feelings... n wen we noe each other, wen he touches his heart, he was reali single..

well, forget it... 3 consecutive nites and we had gone the action deeper n deeper... but... we talked things out liao...

he's going to married soon... he got a fiancce who luv her alot... alot... they are aso so compitable, no matter is looks or family bground... but me, jus a typical normal gal who has to work and earn $ fo myself, n tak public transport n eat in normal coffee shop... but he's the opp! altho tis few days we toget reali see him happy, and myself happy aso... but, we're reali not meant for each other... not jus his marriage but aso our bground... im not a normal gal with normal family bground lor... compliated bground too... 2 mothers... well, but wad can i do? nothing...

its alright de... since we had agree le... n guess wad, from nw on he'll be takin me as his sis... to take care n to dote on... but can i reali tak him as my bro? well, even if i cant, will tis world change for me? 9 mths d luv story i had aso give up le, moreover he's just 22 days...

nvm abt the past... jus wan to hear good news from him tat he's happy... all the best my dearest kor...

jus blame us for noeing each other late... n tis realistic world...

wad happen ytd? shhh... its absoulty a bi big secrect... i cant posslble tell the whole world hw bitch i am ba... but guys n gers, frns, buddies, sis, bro, sweetheart, dear and darlings... pls believe me, i aso dun hope for tis! i reali feel bad...

if wad he said is reali true, den i've no more regrets... at least, the one i luv, share the same feelin as me.. n im the one... we are jus lack of fate...God, he mus be xin fu out dere wor... since u dun allow me to, den she mus! hee... i may b silly la... but no choice... ;)

10.19.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:17 PM

im bck again, finally... he came bck liao... disappeared but bck... was around 11+ on lina's bday, last tues, n im so ignorant by his on-and-off, so i pretended n asked him coldy "who are you" despite knowin his jm... hmm... he said hes down to paradiz but din go partybox cuz he din see me inside, he was i kbox instead... its true, cuz noel did see him wandering outside... he asked me down to kbox... n his persistence touched me, once again...

went down, n kept totally quiet dere oni laughed at their laughters n joke... woah... he was like nothin ever happen kinda... din say anyth... but kip praising my singin... sang "wo bu nan guo" woah, is like singin to him lidat.... lolz... den sang "ai duo shao zao zhi dao" while he sang "jie kou" ... candice n junyang... u get my meaning?

he sent me home, n he alight from the cab... silly him rite, waste $$... but, $$ to him isnt a prob... we den end up talkin in shelther behind my x's block...

he told me his story... he's a real-life dao ming si.... rich, din eat at coffee shop or hawker center... nv take bus before.... n worst, force to b toget wit a gal by the means of his parents as dey like her alot n their parents noe wach other...

hmm... aft fin talkin we end up talkin on the phone... ha... i nv imagine my luv life will get complicated till lidat... nv... yes, i do like him still jus like b4, n he too... but...

next day... he was drunk... he told me a shockin news, but im well-prepared le... he gotta get married sooon... hah... wad can i say den? its reali too dramatic...

he's a normal guy but with dao ming si bground, im of shancai bground but w/o her courage -- jus like jolin in the Hi Working Girl... n her gf is like xiao you lidat... but with angel in MVP Valentine's character... hah... will seek out or do anyh jus wanna him stay with her...

im jus like a 3rd party... met him secrectly... n last nite worst, even held hands... but, i've my ku zhong... see the story? liang ge xiang ai de ren dan mei you ke nen zai yi qi... held hands not cuz wanna tin of gettin toget but kip it as a memory... before ppl say i snatch ppl's husband... well, im jus gettin emotional nw... hvn cry yet... so no worries k! jus feel ugly abt this realistic world... i noe, even if we're reali togeth, we'll face alot of obstacle aso... our family bground... haiz...

jus can let nature take course n wish each other happy ba...

10.17.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:38 PM

wah... alot to update tdy wor...

went partybox last week twice as a status of a customer... once with jenn, den with jane... yea, finally met jane up le... hmmm, she nw a very xin fu ger liao wor... hw xian mu... hmmm... last yr's tdy, i jus met my him... my 1 yr aft, we gone sep ways le... with different dreams and different surroundings... he had another ger by his side too le, but im still searchin for my mr.right... well, dun worry k, im alright... =)

hmmm... fri n sat no much different in working... jus feel very kua zhang lor, sat got 4 floor staff.. last time wen partybox alot ppl shi max aso oni 3... need so many staff meh? i doubt it lor... friday -- the jenn passed me another cd tat she burn for me le... so kai xin... and cried again of course, the theme song from the wang zi bian qin hua... den fri, the person im waiting for cum le.. haha.. he's my jiu xin... saved me from gettin fan over some guys b4... haha... den, sat the idiot came, make me sooooo moody... he came n b4 hand he told me... but he brought his gf! den tell me for??? den he still hv the face to sms me ask me izzit very angry of him n ask me go dere talk to him... he's dao... he dun wan the friendship de... he promise again tat day, but n break again... FORGET IT... LESS HIM TIS FRNS, IM ABSOLUTLY FINE...

jus cried aft listen the 933 yin yuan ri ji wor... abt the 16 yrs old ger n a 26 yrs old married guy xiang ai... hao sad...

isnt edelynn more special than adeline???? heee... lida den my name wun be he 1st in u guys phone list le... den of course, no more blank sms and prank call... =p

10.12.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:45 PM

hmmm... was illed for 2 days, so 2 days din update liao... monday still went taos with jenn happily, mei xiang dao 2 days aft i illed liao... ah.... sad... so tired... wad keeps occupying my mind was the shadow of my ex... the days wen he feed me with medicine n porridge... ah... made me cry alot... sad... moody till death... sad...

another thing is... the release of my result... i dunno lehz, my com.skill got a B+ and my credits got 2... but my web development which got a B got a credits of 5... den my marketing got C but got 2 credits... the rest are to be repeat... nah... 2 got debarred, e rest i din turn up... haiz...

wadever... no regrets...

E'delynn

10.09.2005!

HandWritten on; 11:15 PM

woh... im so glad to see my blog one aft the other entry liao... heee... in office nw... reali got monday blue... nthing to do reali... cuz ive alread finish the work which is been assigned de.. relax, but bored!!

hey... actuali something gals tell gals is gals talk de ma... need not go tell e guys de... nahz, it let me leave a not-so-good impression of her.. understand tis kind of feelin? somemore i'm aint so close with her... but forget it la... i din said anythi wrong ma, its true... my personal opinion ma... tat someone is better lookin than the others...

last fri wen im workin, i reali gt pissed of by one customer! nah... criticise me for no reason... ask me "y are u so fat"... piang... i was like... *$$^&? to him lor... but i din la of course... those normal customer or normal human beings wont ask tis kind of fck up qn de... if dey did hey'll claim tat its a joke.. but he din~ he continued askin... "u work in pub... u so fat.. is cuz no guys den u work in pub to noe more guys ah??" completly pissed off. imaging a guy hu looks not so shuai too tellin u tis... nah, anyway, its true he's not a normal human being... he's a gay.... so... im okie la.. understandable... lolz...

hmm... upon completly o-level... honestly im quite a little disappointed in some ppl... in 1 person lor... well, mayb is sh need not need a listenin ear ba... she always reject my invitation... always... nv fail to reject... nah... jane u noe... u noe who im talkin abt... hope tis lady if u happen to see tis entry, pls.... pls tin abt wad i've said...

10.06.2005!

HandWritten on; 10:33 PM

This is a short summary of my happenings...

- workin in office now... kbox de office

-latest quote of my:
""actuali we always hope tat time will rewind back to the past where the other party luv and care for us... but we nv realise actuali the time DID rewind back... it rewinded back to the past where the other party have not start luvin us""

- miss one relationship? but its alright la...

- jus bought jolin 's concert dvd...

- someone someone stil owe me purple rose... wonder if she will see tis... lolz...

- getting headace each day workin on the sales report.... nah....

- getting fatter n uglier... haha... no self confident...

- feel like dying my hair purple... nah... but im workin office... isnt tat a little weird...

- work in somewhere besides partybox before.... but i still missed partyboxx

- guys come n go... i tink i suit a single life... "yi ge ren de jin cai"