she moved back le... so happy... its a good relieve...

hmmm... jus brought a new 2nd hand phone... dunnno wad's the model but i noe its nokia flip phone, the one with camera at the side... got all basic function lor... n got memory card.... heee...

went bck to nyp today n do my 2nd time withdrawl... but hasnt complete... saw my ex-polymates but din call em... dunnno hw to ans their qn lor, if they ask where i study... should say dun have face ba... =X

heee... im at parklane game center nw... with jane... jus finish dinner at mr bean. saw a quite nice lookin guy... whaha... is she spot it de wor... he's workin dere de.. hah...

happy... but will it last? hope so....

lost hp... i can get a new one... but now, i lost my closest ppl... hw should i bring up lehz? i jus simply lost the whole world... my loved one n the one who luv me...

im back to loneliness

nw wen i step into my hse, im oni myself... all alone...

yea, since young im with my grandma n uncle, but nw, family issue made my life got upside-down... complicated... i jus noe i reali cant bear her to move out... but no one can make the decision... jus blame my elder uncle for being unfilial n unreasonable... i reali see thru guys... be it ai qin or qing qin... wadever guys say means it... wadever a guy mean he's not happy den he can tak up the action n it mus be finalise? i reali got pissed off n mad last nite... its for the 1st time i speak up so cruely, with cursed to them... i reali dun wan her to go... i reali wan to stay with her...

see, from young im not living with my dad n mum... my real mum abandon me... den?! the dad who bring me to tis world dun wan to be responsible for me... wanna give me off, but luckily my uncles n grandma "saved" me... so from young, im a gal with no parents takin care off de... tats why guanda will say me not family-sociable... but i nv want it! who dun wan to be born in a happy or rather jus a normal family? who dun wish to stay with their parents where dey understand em n listen to em? i jus wan a simple life.... a happy life... guanda said before, its all tis factors which push me to be so dependent towards him...

i dun have wad a normal gal has... happy family, or rather jus some family members by her side.. no one will listen n talk to me... i believe my negatives will make em go away from me... i may be laughing n smiling all the time wen im with em, but no one will noe the saddness i had in my heart wen im alone... no one noe the real me...

den since from young i had no motherly luv, i oni rmb my grandma's care... nw the unfilial guy chase her out den who cares for me? im all alone... its not a hse anymore... im too tired to be independent... i reali give up in my game... i admit im a loser..

i reali wan a shoulder to cry on... someone to make me smile n be by my side...

i've lost my hp.... with all my contacts, picx n meaningless memorable sms... sweetheart said its god wanting me to throw again the past n start all over. izzit true? last time with no hp means me n him ending... tis time i end woth who again? i've lost over 100 friends in one nite. i can oni rmb jinyin, terry n vannessa's number... oni 3 out out the 100 loads... will dey come back to me again? i jus wan atleast a memory dere... be it picx or sms... yea, i kept the msg tat "he" sent... but now is gone... gone n nv be back... although some contact number can still be able to trace back, but wad abt those tat i totally had no linked to? no msn, no friendster... he's HS... he's gone... forever... since he aso broke one promise... nah, felt lost... i dunno wad to do... fated ba... i just hope ppl reading tis can help me trace back numb... tis is a great highlight liao.. nothing much to be commented... nevertheless, my life is not interesting...

finish work liao... hee...

not a very easy job. match-making... difficult to find the partner tat both party wans... the crietria not match... choosy ba?! human beings are meant to be lidat de ma? hmmm... now i realise this... if got the fate, 2 ppl will meet each other. a greater fate the 2 ppl will be frns. with many many fate den the 2 ppl will be together... n with tat yi sheng ji lai de fu n fate den the 2 ppl will be together... for long... pretty difficult ba... but today, ive seen one case :: 2 ppl got match together n their bday so coincidently, falls on the same day! hmmm.... today i leant hw to make matches... tomor i'll be introducing the 2 members to each other.... =) look forward for tat! looks like im gonna get stuckk in parkland area...

hmmm... i've met plenty of funny things too... in my 17 yrs... the journey is so adventurous... beautiful! but with some rocks too, which makes me trip n fall, and bleed... but the journey is still a beautiful one... n i noe, dere some ppl who will be by my sid, be my first-aider... rain will stop de... n rainbow will form. although sometimes the cloud mite block some of the 7 colours, u'll at least see the sunshine. heee... sweetheart, i noe u'll feel good for me tat im so optimistic nw ya... n i noe, the ex of mine whom seen the most childish side of me will be happy too... he's nw happy too, with his own happinesss...


hmmm... wad to say lehz.. im happy nw, but same === emotional. whaha.

jus went for a job interview again. heh, ytd i dint went to the job training. find it to be a little hard... telemarking... now i lost my vice lehz, hw to pick up phone call n talk... whaha... work at parklane. haha. imagine, day-time work parklane, nite work paradize... oooh.... its a match-making center... be match maker.. hope one day i can hao xin you hao bao, find myself a good one.. hee... not at dere la, i mean one tat i luv... look forward for tomor... =)

brought The Prince who turns Into a Frog. Spent $85... =X sob sob.

nw im in a pretty goof mood. though i've lost my voice again...

today log in to register for my nie relief teaching. but got problem filling in the form lehz.. haiz.. so sad... lata going to work again... so sianz...

cheng xu er ru... im not tis lind of person... nahz.. who cares wadever dey say... i wont care abt em... n him liao... hehe... jus work lor... be normal... im a boring kinda...

wha... so long den have tis chance..

tis few weeks keep chasing the Wang Zi Bian Qin Hua den kip going to work late... 8.30 den leave hse... reach workplace arounf 9.05-9.15... wha... wad i'd say lehz... the story line is like wad the JM told me lor... ha... makes me feel like as if im the ye tianyu... he's dangou// junhao... *piang* im tianlee... not nianyu nah... tink he's addicted to tis drama den will lidat tell me the story de... but im not like her lor, she in the end have junhao by her side, but not me... haha... jus find it rather amuse...

pissed off in partybox again n again. other ppl can relaxly work, sms, go out talk on phone, talk to customer, sing song with customer & play games... but jus cuz i work dere longest, means i must be fully responsible of the service n got ban from the fun?! nah... pissed off... i noe celina keep stressing karen on the service~service~service... but... she aso stress me!!! wad to say lehz.. goood lor, got thing wrong is scold me, service no good ask me serve, pool-table ask me look aft.. wha... i oni got 1 pair of hand lor... so multi-tasking but the pay is the SAME as those who oni do 1/3 of the job... kinda unfair... n hor, i dun agree wad she mean by::: If u look aft pool-table den u can dun do so much service... DUN AGREE... u mean u wan me to stand around at the pool-board and monitor from 9-4??? surely half way or wad i'd work around... or customer will call me to do tis do tat de,... its always a double job... yeeeks, last time at least bz christ or celina will help look aft... nw wan me... DOUBLE JOB! forget it, it's jus some politics... hope one day celina temper can change good again...

ytd went mooovie... wha, aft so long finally went... with HS... a guy who i noe from partybox but so coincident, he was from nyp too.. a 1988 march -- born too... lolz... so much similarites makes us have so much things to talk... whaha... a1 student for chinese n art student too... lolzz... watched All about Love... pretty touching~ but din cried much... cuz i mus control!! whaha... cried most terrible de is the movie : a moment to remember...

hey... 9nov coming... its the 1-year... so sad... 1 yr before de today... im havin my o-level.. n waiting for it to be over so he can give me an answer... but todAy... im ALL ALONE...

argh~ ren de bu huai nu de bu ai... tis philosphy dun match me wor... =) guai n shy guys makes me feel peaceful...