4.28.2009!
HandWritten on; 6:35 AM
她只是无意闯入的第三者
我们之间的困难
在她出现之前就有了
I okay... At least my love for him is had already dead... I dun blame anyone, just blame my foolishness!
Im lucky, if I realised this long ago, I could have commit suicide.
After reading my post yesterday, maybe u guys will think its my retribution ba. Who ask myself flirt first... Yea? But atleast I'm all clear with this guy, only treat each other good, and full stop. I dun care how people think, cuz i always believe, my friends will definitly stand same line as me...
I hate this friend who start off blaming me.He say: you can't blame him for stepping two boat, cuz you also........ (he carrys on in a very harsh tone while i interupt)I say: Ya, i know...He say: money part, why u so stupid and silly? I tot I told you before.............I say: (honestly i couldn't remember clearly wad I said, cuz was too angry of the way he reacted)He say: Always forever only can you say, you never wan to listen.I hanged his call.
He sms me "Go and die".And his sms killed a friendship.
I need a listening ear, if you aren't willingly to listen, hint me. I dun need any lecture or
scolding... and worst, I hate a friend to text me that 3 words... Worst guy I ever know... Super annoyed.
Hello, blame me for? I lost money (not small amount, but i dun wan disclose, cuz it only makes me prove myself even more stupid), I lost trust, I got betrayed, I got cheated...
In my dictionary, there's 3 sentence you can never send to a friend when you are angry... It kills friendship and it hurt people deeply:
1) Go and die. (if this word come true, how will you feel?)
2) F*ck you. (friend-friend joke joke still ok, but not during quarrel)
3) Regret knowing you this friend ( damn hurting)I admit my extra feelings for this guy, but we only very very good friends, no doubt he treats me nice, but come on, we are clear and innocent!
End of this topic.
我会发着呆然后微微笑...
4.27.2009!
HandWritten on; 6:02 AM
Hmm, how should I start blogging? Well, direct -- I realise my ex 劈腿, one leg step two boat...
Well, some people might be confuse... Isn't me and my ex Jeffery Fok (the one working at Rav) already ended long ago? Ya, so sorry to hide it all the way... The fact is: we still in the relationship, but we never meet up for like 2 months plus due to or busy schedule... To me, my heart for him already dead. But we never really mention the word "break". So, when sms or calls, he still call me dear or darling, wadever shit names...
And I admit my part too... for the extra feeling I've for another guy... so, maybe i can't blame him for stepping two boats.
After dragging these for so long, God gave me a chance to let everything ended with a full stop. And this chance also let me realised what a fool I've being.
As usual, sunday is my ex's sleeping day... But occassionally, he'll meet up with me.. So as usual practice, I called him.. No answer... Fine... Yup, then I used my spare line (hi-card number) to call him. Guess what, he answered! And he's outside, clubbing.
I used another girl's name to sms him, to see where is he... And you know what is his reply? I'm at Thai Disco with my girlfriend... wanna join?
Girlfriend? Aint suppose your girlfriend is me?? And later part, his "girlfriend" called asking me to join... without knowing i'm edelynn, his girlfriend or rather ex-girlfriend.
This is very complicated.... I couldn't blame him for stepping two boat at the same time, but... He still call me dear / darling when he borrows or take money money from me... He still joke and laugh with me.. Not long, jus a day before i realised this fact.
So....??
Taking my money and spend it with another girl? What the hell.... He'll have his retribution, and once I get the thing I wanted... I'll do all things for revenge. Forgive my evil heart, forgive my childishness. I must make him lose face, and not letting people get hurt again.
Guang scolded me for my foolishness.
Wil blamed me for being naive.
Chris said I should have realised long ago.
I regreted...
I got betrayed... I trust him so much since he say he'll change and start to save up... den? I believe him saying he's busy thats why never meet up, den?
Its money issue. Now that I dared to include his names and place or work, I already hack care him... let his reputation gone ba...
傻瓜我们都一样 受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价 代价只是一句傻瓜
4.26.2009!
HandWritten on; 8:10 AM
Oh, a super moody day... especially after some hurting sms from someone special :( looks like better now, but... I still feel kind of sad...
Would you look at someone's behavior, by judging them thru wad people say about his/her past?
I tot I won't. But not everyone stands at the same line as me...
Things finally got better, and we already moved on the a more "premier" stage, but several things stuck up in between... Oh well, oh well, looks like time and fate is playing a trick at me again this time...
Hopefully things will be better.
4.14.2009!
HandWritten on; 7:37 AM
Finally i'm posting here again!
Yeah, just finish a
roadshow at Vivocity, a bridal fair supposed to tie up with the fashion show they've... My first time in-charge the whole roadshow, panic, stress and worry... Well, its over anyway... And nice knowing afew friends from various outlet! They're helpful and sweet... A good experience gain...
Always had supper cuz only manage to grab some food in the early noon, then have to busy till closing... Being more round liao la! Hmph.
Yesterday went back after returning stocks to HQ, and off today. Went to
Shin Bar again, and was sooo drunk! Slept in the cinema from begining till ending while the rest were watching movie happily... Lousy me, haha...
Was quite emo tho... About a quarrel with my dearest darling... Well, should disclose too much.
The Star-shaped necklace shared about my dearest collegues on my birthday..
