This time i guess i am really lost. I cant help, i dunno how to help her too. My granny is admitted to hospital, and she wans to go back. So am i, i wanna bring her back too. But my uncles (her sons) had never contact the hospital, neither they visited her. They intenting to just dump her there? She's out of her mind already. I dunno how to visit her, dunno how to face her n tell her about my uncles.

She dote me so much when i am young. But, is this the same old granny of mine? She is very agitated. The only thing i can do is to ask my uncle bring her back. But they seems to be unwilling and, dun care.

Wad can i do?

She cried n shouted, curse and scold. But does she noe how worry i am? noe how sad i am? I guess nope, she still scold me for my cryings.

I hate myself, so as wad my uncles did.

I have being thinking and hoping, to bring her out for nice food and buy her some new clothings. But, will this day come?

BEFORE


AFTER


YEAH, ITS ME!!

Many people alrdy left the company. I mean those i noe, and started to be quite friend. Pretty stress lately, abt my lousy sales results. Gosh, which is the real me in sales line.

Maybe both of us just dun click that much. Was waitingfor this day to come, but, never thought it results like this. Worst meet up he had ba... lol... Still again, sorryss...

I realise myself just like to dream, day dream. And even though i know by doing or allowing that thing to happen, i will get hurt, and not to be happy... but still, in my dream, i still goes for that thing. Funny tho...

Wonder if u guys noe, i had actually cut my hair short. And i mean, SHORT. The feedback i got, quite different. Collegues said its okay, fresh, sweet n more youthful. While, Melvin n Mark, the only two Ms give me negative comments. Okay, mark said it makes my face bigger, melvin said, its just FUNNY. Not ugly, not fat, but just feel weird... and advise me to do hair extension.

I GUESS ITS OKAY LA... no people will notice... =X

Dear readers, im not okay. im seriously not ok.

The ending had approached.

I had said all the harsh words kept in my heart for months, and did the silliest thing.

1 week only 2 meet ups, and each only less than 2 hours. Yet, time is still spent for quarreling n picking up tears.

我离不开他, 也留不住他
心像空荡大厅, 一切就要蒸发
我离不开他, 风留不住沙, 我留不住他.
现在好想他

My philosophy is "money can buy happiness". So i like to spend money in dinners or lunch with my friends... even drinking. Even though next day i might end up no money. To me, happy is the most important word in my dictionary. But for him, its opposite. He's more realistic, i know.

我想离开, 可是我还期待...

我知道你我都没有错, 只是忘了怎么退后

Im stubborn, which makes everything worsen. I only able to react and wake up and be soft when i cool down, and realize that its too late. While u, only when 伤害 already 造成 den cool down.

"或许命运的签只让我们遇见,
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天."

Had some discussion with my collegue william on relationship matters, and hv the strong urge to blog it.

hmmm... am i super sensitive? or its jus a common reaction of all? I guess it could b him being insensitive ba... how can i not be jealous if my bf send me hm first den another gal back? and i actually only sit at the back seat of his car, while another gal sit infront next to him? how can i not be mad if my bf brings another gal friend of his to my own friend gathering (eg bday party)? how can i dun feel disappointed if the vlalentine gift frm my bf is actually choosen by another gal? how can i not go crazy if i found another gal in my bf's hse (even if they didnt do anything)??

dear friends, relax. they're all examples that my collegue asked. my bf nv and i hope wont do the above.

i mean, to guys, maybe is NOTHING. The gal could b staying near him, so he send me back first, so he can directly go home... but my answer is NO. Even if they really hve nothing, jus slacking around at my bf's hse, my answer is also NO. I couldnt accept this!!!! These are all emotions of a gal, so as to shirley's agreement. But guys are just ignorant. =X

Yea, im full of imagination, and of course, to the negative... how i noe everything is so simple? i rather nothing happen, or i rather dunno.

Thus, if u hve any secrets or if u're doing somethi behind, please NEVER LET ME FIND OUT. Just let me continue acting a naive n silly role in this relationship.

And, we both agree that, having a ending on a relationship, 99% is due to 3rd party. Quarrels wont end a rs, same for the stupid excuse for having no more feelings. Sometimes, u'll get the 3rd party to be your partner, sometimes not.

Anyway, im fine... =) jus sharing my point of view... nothing to do with 3rd party in my rs... and i hope it wont.

PS:: Regards for dear friends out there. Please cherish the 1 u love n love you!!!

1st day of the month. Children's day... saw so many kids going out with their daddy mummy.. quite envy them. hmmm...

Ok, had supper with dear n jane... Haha, nice Scissors Paper Stone that we had... But, the food is really alittle too much la huh... Im pretty happy... maybe...

Thanks for the care, the way u mind me going out with whoever whoever, the way u jealous, the way u concern abt everything. Louis is right, if he doesnt bother, den, its abit xxXXxxX already aso. Similarly, i do mind also.

Edelynn... who is edelynn. Edelynn is a girl... (hmm, rubbish again).

Nothing else. May i can carch up more sales tmr.. :)

I will never mention that date again!!! Dun worry!!! =p

MY BODY IS BIG, MY HEAD IS BIG. BUT MY HEART IS PRETTY SMALL.
U ARE PRETTY BIG SIZED =x SO, MY HEART ONI HV THE ENOUGH ALLOWANCE TO FIT U IN, AND NOTHING ELSE N NO ONE ELSE! SO DUN WORRY... MY SILLY DEARR... ^^^edelynn promise u ok?