It had been centuries since i last updated my blog. Woo hoo, had been quite some tough and difficult time for me... to endure the hardship, to overcome, to make changes and to finally make and stick on to a decision. Thanks sweetheart for your testimonial! Im really touch and glad... Hmm, i noe many pp support and help me alot, esp LL and XC... Really appreicate it. And i noe my indecisive had made people real angry of me.

Sweetheart is right, being a bf of mine, he have to be the supportive one, and encourage me to futhur my studies. But think back, did my bf eventually said any wrong thing? Nah, my ans is no..

Putting my family prob aside, wad he said is somehow TRUE. Hmm, actually i dun really dare to post up to my blog, cuz im afraid my classmates will actually reads it and commented on it... But well, its TRUE anyway...

Wad he said was... I've actually passed by O-levels... Altho my results aint excellent, but the courses available is a wide range too... Aft ITE i'll aso be studyin diploma... For wad i waste my time in ITE and get into poly where i can eventually do it? My ans... "because, im scare i cant cope well in poly"... He replied, "Den if u think u can cope well in ITE why dun u study sec-sch back again.." Harsh, but reasonable. No matter how excellent my result can be wen im in ITE, i got to wad i wan aft the ITE education. Study poly? But im worry i might not cope! Studying in ITE doesnt mean i can cope well, or had a better alternative. And only the top 5 or 10 percent can go into a poly after graduation. Am i able to? Mayb after withdrawing from NYP, i had really made a wrong choice.

Wadever it is... No offence to the above msg... im not insulting or criticising ITE... And most importantly, i've decided... Be it silly or stupid that i eventually wasted a year, and another year again... No choice... No other alternatives... Foolish edelynn, this is me..

And one best thingy that dear can see in me is, i actually becomes more indecisive after hearing how much my LL and XC helped me... Yes, indeed, i really felt very guilty! And this is the reason why i started to avoid the calls and some sms...Hmmm, okay, only 3 person called and ask me wad eventually happened out of 30+ people... And best, some ppl who seems pretty close to me in class dint even bother to show any concern.. Woo hoo, cool, anyway... Doesnt make any diff ba, if i did hear from them not, cuz its only these 3 where i most cant bear leaving! I'll defintely miss LL's koke and laughters, XC's friendlyness and the help she offer to give, and M's stupid lame jokes... (PS: at least still have 3 who bother, not like last yr in some insitute, no calls no sms...) Yea, and maybe to LL, im not be appreciative and hack care, but, sorry, i really noe u help me alot... Or mayb im jus aint worth u guys doing so much for me ba... Anyway... I hope one day wen things cool down, we can still meet up and keep in contact, same for XC... =)

God bless me, please.