Ytd just met involve myself w an accident... Lst so much blood... Argh...

Well, the incident goes lidis... This guy, was holiding a container bowl which contains nuts... (make of glass) and we're casualty talkin about the pricing of alcohol in my workplace... All of the sudden, the glass bowl jus slip off from his hands... And one of the broken glass cut my toe... I tot its jus minor cut where the broken glass rebounce and cut me.. but im wrong... wen i rush myself back to the bar, i realise the cut aint as small as i think... Tissue cant stop the bleeding... the whole white tissue turns into red ones... Argh... Den rush myself to the toilet since everyone is forcusing on the World Cup... Arh~~~ my sandal is covered w blood! and everytime in between i apply pressure on it till i took out new piece of tissue, the sandal is filled w blood again... I cried man... hah, cuz the blood reali flow out tooooo fast and too much... imagine jus less than 1 min den the whole tissue is reddish.. argh...

Well, i cant hide in the toilet forever ma... either i go out to work or i go and seek for some medical aids... and i force myself to put on plaster although the bleeding didnt stop... I noe it'll cause infection, but i've no choice... I even got scolded for my injury.. wth... Well, got emotional again... hah, cried again... Cuz no-one cares... =x Mayb to em, i can walk and stand, means im ok liao ba.. but no one noes hw severe the bleeding is... haizz... well, anyway it stopped liao.. although it did bleed again aft sometime..

Maybe jus bleed to death ba... hah... no difference between alive and dead.. =x



Well, i guess i've really got use of my single lifestyle... heh... i dun like ppl forcing me to ans him certain qn, nor listening to him say hw much he likes me or will wait for me how long... k la... if u wanna ask me hw much i trust uu... den tis oni shows u dunno me well at all... Since when dint i trust my frns...?

And another impt thing... understanding of someone is slowly build up de, not by asking... Siimply i had enough... I noe u treats me real well, and i cant deny tat u're real sweet at times... But there's still alot of things lackiin in it... And of course, the most impt asset from me-- feelings... Maybe its due to my lack of time, or i've get used of being alone which includes solving prob ALONE, travel ALONE, etc etc... im far independent as u tot... Or, maybe its the lack of understanding u had for me, which results u keep askin me qns... and makes me so tired... Or, like wad baobeii tot - i've someone else in my mind tat i dint realised yet... Or, its appearence wise... Or, its just the lack of time... 16th days... hah...

i dun wan hurt anyone again... i'll get my retribute... i dun wan~ i noe u'll be reading this...


tired~