Browsing thru the Yahoo Auctions... Due to crystal... Showed me a pendent and i immediately fall in love w it... Haha... and was helping someone to find the url to that link... Reason? Cuz he wana see the pendent... haha... So continued browsing now... And i saw so many necklace and pendent.. all so chio lookin lo~!

Okay.. maybe i'd share... =) They're entering my life... becoming thinz that i LOVE! Omg... =x

FirStly,




Its these 2... Which makes me fall in love once sees them...



Secondly,


Simple... but nice too...

Thirdly,


Key-shaped necklace that i always wants...


But baobeii say muz wait till im 21... haiz... :(


But i really love it alot~! lolz...


Oh ya, saw the captions... they're from the show Full House...

This is the one Crystal likes... its cool..


And finally, i guess baobeii will love this pendant... haha =p

Working for the past 2 days... Was really TIRED and sick to go to school... Didnt had enough sleep... Haiz, ii hesisted for quite long if should go school not... To follow my heart, tired - dun go... Or, to follow my brain, tired - aso muz go... I choose to follow my heart... I noe teacher is going to feel unhappy and tomor might be makin noise abt my absence... But im jus tired! Hmmm... talkin abt my absence, teachers always take it tat i absent cuz im lazy to come for school... Dey assume tat i can make it, but i dun wanna make it... THey never wanna really care and look into the matter and ask WHY.... Wonder wad are adults thinkin at times... Always makin assumption... But no way to ask me not to work... I've my very own reasons... Oni ppl who understands noes it... Kind of gonna FORCED to work de... i noe its not a valid reason to use "tired" as an excuse to miss school la... But, i've no other alternatives liao... The situation aint as simple as u tot...

Next thingy, having common test on thurs and fri... aft tat will be HOLIDAY! Yea, i dun like holidays in sec-sch... but nw...ok la... its time for me to take a break, and of course WORK! Im waiting for Friday's arrival... Friday comes, means holiday coming too.. and of course, saturday is approaching too... =)

Im afraid of...

• the dark (lol, i on the lights wen i zzz lo.. wad u think?!)
• staying single (i scare i jia bu chu qu!)
• giving birth
• spiders and/or other flying insects (which ger doesnt?)
• failures
• loneliness
• ghosts
• losing my friends
• losing someone who meant alot to me
  
• being murdered in my sleep
• rejections
• bad news
• losing things
• my dad =x
• breaking glasses
• angry ppl...
  
• ppl quarellings
  
• misunderstandings
• boling water

Freak me off wen i see my tag.board.. Hah... sweetheart, im ok... no worries man... Im still the edelynn or adeline wadever... okay... =) Next, the flooding of sms and tags.... enough pls... i wan silence...

Today's sunday... des going to book in liao.. Oh no... haha... For him, training gonna begin again... For me, i gonna get stress again... Hah... jia you man~

So for the rest of the week i've stayed at home, sleeping... haiz, lack of slp... always sleep at 9+ and wake up at 1 plus and stare on my celings and hp... So only went out on fri, sat, and today... esp its des book out day... and i should take a break...

Just went to CP for Jack's place... Mmm, i just discover Jack's place is famous for its steaks, but i dun take steak... For religion purpose, cuz father disallow me to eat at home, and thus now is my habit not to eat steak liao... So i have fish n chips instead... more budget too, altho its his treat... pai seh la.. lolz... den met up w baobeii and guang lata for dinner... and sent des off to book in... Mmm... 1 more week to see him again.. hahzz..

Ok la, back from ytd, i said i'll rmb everythi.. all tat ppl say, do and forgets... Mmm, it not ioni refers to unhappy stuffs la... Some ppl they really treats me well.. leave aside to those who've motive or purpose, i mean real frnship... Showing kindness to your frn due to pure frnship... i rmb: sweetheart - always dere to listen to complains in partybox... either relating to work, or bgr.. baobeii - encouragements thru out all hardship.. in redcross, in nyp, over bgr, n in times where im not studying... the little gifts and letters in sec school till nw... so sweet... meph and guang - going to ttsh for tat incident happened... des - encouragements, cheering me up and helps in powerpoint and etc etc... he's great... (like god, lol) TW - the lame jokes he said wen im moody and emo... and the lists goes on...

ii apprecaite everythi wor... =)

Mm.. i heard karen said this before... Every "fate" has a due date to it.. Some will last for years, some jus for months etc... Its alrdy zhu ding alrdy... Those whose fate lasts, can be married as husband and wife... those tat doesnt, it will jus break off, or divorce.. or one party die... Sad rite.. When i hear this, i aso began to think.. who will eventually have "long fate" with me... i dun wish the frnship with the dearest frns by my side nw have a due date to it lor... seriously i dun wan... i hope all the frnship lasts...

Finally, i've the time to post... Mmm, but i realise most of the time wen i can sit down and post my entries, i'll be emotional... haiz... why??!

Mmm, firstly, tot i'd be happy and excited abt des return (although its jus for 3 days) but i dint expect myself to be so sianz-mood lo... ha... Yup, somethi is bothering me... Well, but im still glad to see him... yea, finally man~!

Went to watch Slither last nite...

W guang, des and edmund... Argh... i dun like the show.. gross... super gross... hw i wish i can jus walk out the theather... seriously~! Almost cried out sia... Jus imagine yourself in the show...

Very tired now... Physically and mentally... although its just 9.50pm... haha... Sometimes think back, im really lack of time... Too much things to cope w liao... but ok la.. i'll try my best... =) enough of myself blogging abt hw sad or hw unhappy i am.. nothing can change it...

Yea, so hope no other pressure from other areas comes in... ENOUGH le.. People come and goes, oni those that are true stays... I noe u've left... so, i'll wave my hands and say bye... Not sad abt it, jus felt somehow disappointed tat its so ture tat: guys breaks promises... The story u said, believe or not, is up to me... Whether its going to happen anot, aso another thing... But your changes had alrdy proven somethi... Well, ok la... Jus wasting each others time lo... I've no more time to waste liao... So, no other chance to be given... u've obviously change... or i've misunderstood uu?

I'll rmb all tat ppl once said and done... Be it serious de, jokin de, heart-breakin de... Whether i've forgiven, or u had aplogise... i'll rmb all... and indeed i rmb all... Mmm, if u're nice to me, i'll be nice to u too... Its me... And if u betrayed me, or hurts me in any way, den unless u're my dear friend, or someone i love, i wont care abt u... This is me, edelynn... As i promised in the beginning of the year, in my own blog... i promised not to shed tears for guys... Yep, i did it.. i never... I dun care abt uu liao.. Whether u wanna be ignorance or avoiding... i wont care... Yea, u'll be readin tis... but i seriously had enough... Enough of all sorrys... Sorry is said when u realise your own mistakes, and when u felt gulity in the way it hurts the another party... Sorry is not jus a word in the dictionary...

k la... anyway, i said before i like my bf to be mature...Maybe i myself is childish too... Mmm, in anyway... we're still young... and we both have someone who is impt to us, although u claim she's your god-sis, and me, he is my best buddy... We're still friends of course... No obligation..

Korea out of World Cup top 16... Disappointed... Tot Korea was leading in its group de... But end up aso get kick out.. haiz...

And des jus ask me a qn which makes me think alot too... Since when i am happy... Yea, listen up for the ans... Im happy wen im doing things i like, and wen i didnt have the time to think abt those unhappy stuff... Im happy w baobeii + des + guang... happy wen im in sch w the 5 of them -- xiu, crys, ling, lin, von... W my collegues at work after 10pm.. Ya... im happy now too... =) hope wen u read tis, u're not bored, but happy too... hah, lets jia you together man~! (",)

I'll remember everything. That u said, you did, den breaks and forgot... Not jus you, everyone~~ everything~~

so bored... jus change a new blog skins... Mmm, normal looking... but i quire like it... Shit it, i saw the difference viewing my blog thru IE and Mozilla... makes my previous entries look sooo sooo ugly... argh...the links too... blue colour link... so awful... haha... give me time and i can improve... promise~

Ytd just met involve myself w an accident... Lst so much blood... Argh...

Well, the incident goes lidis... This guy, was holiding a container bowl which contains nuts... (make of glass) and we're casualty talkin about the pricing of alcohol in my workplace... All of the sudden, the glass bowl jus slip off from his hands... And one of the broken glass cut my toe... I tot its jus minor cut where the broken glass rebounce and cut me.. but im wrong... wen i rush myself back to the bar, i realise the cut aint as small as i think... Tissue cant stop the bleeding... the whole white tissue turns into red ones... Argh... Den rush myself to the toilet since everyone is forcusing on the World Cup... Arh~~~ my sandal is covered w blood! and everytime in between i apply pressure on it till i took out new piece of tissue, the sandal is filled w blood again... I cried man... hah, cuz the blood reali flow out tooooo fast and too much... imagine jus less than 1 min den the whole tissue is reddish.. argh...

Well, i cant hide in the toilet forever ma... either i go out to work or i go and seek for some medical aids... and i force myself to put on plaster although the bleeding didnt stop... I noe it'll cause infection, but i've no choice... I even got scolded for my injury.. wth... Well, got emotional again... hah, cried again... Cuz no-one cares... =x Mayb to em, i can walk and stand, means im ok liao ba.. but no one noes hw severe the bleeding is... haizz... well, anyway it stopped liao.. although it did bleed again aft sometime..

Maybe jus bleed to death ba... hah... no difference between alive and dead.. =x



Well, i guess i've really got use of my single lifestyle... heh... i dun like ppl forcing me to ans him certain qn, nor listening to him say hw much he likes me or will wait for me how long... k la... if u wanna ask me hw much i trust uu... den tis oni shows u dunno me well at all... Since when dint i trust my frns...?

And another impt thing... understanding of someone is slowly build up de, not by asking... Siimply i had enough... I noe u treats me real well, and i cant deny tat u're real sweet at times... But there's still alot of things lackiin in it... And of course, the most impt asset from me-- feelings... Maybe its due to my lack of time, or i've get used of being alone which includes solving prob ALONE, travel ALONE, etc etc... im far independent as u tot... Or, maybe its the lack of understanding u had for me, which results u keep askin me qns... and makes me so tired... Or, like wad baobeii tot - i've someone else in my mind tat i dint realised yet... Or, its appearence wise... Or, its just the lack of time... 16th days... hah...

i dun wan hurt anyone again... i'll get my retribute... i dun wan~ i noe u'll be reading this...


tired~

Mmm... feeling better after brain-wash by so many ppl... hee... Yup, im fine and betetr liaoo... No worries...

Updated the NNA blog... Hah, not a difficult task, but i guess ppl will find it strange for me to update on the behald of Des who's in NS... I didnt hack into his account! Jus that he've added me as member in his blog...

Mmm... now the picx are ready... Can share w you guys liao~

Well, the day is 08-June-2006, Des' s last day before he goes into NS... 14 nice friends acc him in for the movie... I dunno the names... Hee... But of course, Guang, baobeii and i are included in the 14 ppl name list...

We watch The Omen...

Wooo... Scary... indeed... And my visit to the ladies in the mid of the movie makes me cry... Oh no, the lights of the toilet jus went off after i closed the door, and i when i lock it up, the lights dim and bright up again.. Exactly the same as u watch those horror movies, the effect u get from it... Scary... Is the toilet designed in this way cuz of the horror movie -The Omen?!

Headed for dinner after the movie... Took picx and slack over there for awhile... Mmm, its the first time 4 of us post for picx... hee...











For more picx, visit WWW.no-not-again.blogspot.com


Credits to Edmund for providing the picx :)

Just finish helpin des to update his NNA's blog... Wooo, its some kind of pressure and stress! His style of blogging and mine so so so different.. haha...

Mm, ytd went kbox with the class for Raymond's bday celebration... But im not present in the cake cutting time... Was engage in phone conversation with baobeii... Left kbox early due to certain reasons and met guang and baobeii for supper... I felt somehow different, alittle strange in the way they treated me... Not over-sensitive ba... Haizz... All of them knew the truth le... Well, wad i wanna say is... That was just an extra feelin, not crush nor like, and of course, it isnt love... Have i done anything wrong? I've not killed anyone nor snatch anyone's bf... And i dunn0 him wel, i admit, i dunno him well... So, i dun think i've made mistakes... Of course, im really sad and disappointed... Its a secret of my own being reveal... But Im not blaming anyone, i jus hope someone will understand it... Even after blogging this, i may result in the same kind of ignorance or even worst...


Des left, but yea, he did sms back... =) Somehow cheer me up last nite wen im feeling so depressed abt the class's behaviour...I dunno hw to face the class again... hah...

Sorry

Rushing for powerpoint project... Wooo... tks des for helpin me with it throughout the nite... Mmm, today's entry is for uu de... since today'll be the last day or rather last time u reading my blog.. Mmmm... Rmb wad u say ok... and wad u promised... although u always break promises... =x my piggs aso dunno die until where liao... lol...

Had a talk w des abt the way guys behave... they tend to treat a gal nice as there's motive... Mmm, yuan lai this world is so realistic ar... No pure true frnship?? Hah, cuz im jus naive?? Wonder hw i'll be in the 2 yrs wen u're gone... Monddes~~~ We'll miss u... lol...

Well, next thing... School... Mmm, seems like wad baobeii say abt schooling in tertiary education gettin true liao... How come i see my secrets being reveal and have so many ppl askin me the same qn? Well, the motivation indeed refer to someone, but nw wen i see his true colour, my feeling faded off liao... its a crush only ba... Jus purly a crush... im not feelin sad nor unhappy...

Haiz, enough of all unhappy stuff...

My class KE gals~~ Yvonne, Xiu Qing, LiLing, Yi Lin, Crystal and me...

How i wish i can just befriend with the classand study... No unhappy stuffs...

All the best... May the days that i've in school will be nice ones... Same for u des, may the days in ns will be smooth for uu... =) See the purple hanger muz reminds u of me k... lol... Rmb to call us wen u're free and meet us once u book out... tatas... 2yrs lata wen u complete ns, i'll have complete my higher nitec too liao... So lets jia you... lol...

4th day of school... coping quite well... except that there're rumors here and dere... Some are true, some not yet being identified if its true...

Mmm, recently pretty busy w projects and studies stuff, trying best to catch up... ok, tks so much to those who helped me... esp des and baobeii for the powerpoint thingy... love u guys.... muackss...

Have some fun too, during the stress and hard parts... Went kbox with guang, baobeii and des... and Sentosa with bAobeii and guAng... heee... enjoy ourselves to bits... Gotta catch the cable car ride and the sky tower next time!

Too many days dint update my blog liao, really dunno wad'd i update over here... haha... nice thingys to share? or blog out my unhappiness?

i tot i've found a motivation to school, but slowly the "motivaton" turns into some kind of "depression"... Yea, i noe its too fast... haha, gotta noe him betta first den can make some comments ba...

Mm, i wish i can study ONLY... really dun wish to work while studying, but i really have no choice at all... My family WONT support me at all de lorr... My complicated family bg, reali dun wish to reveal it within my blog, but to respect everythi that God created... I've to work harder, 2X, 5X, or 10Xs harder than others to get the life, the kind of life i wan... and i seriously need u guys' support... I cant be like u guys, studying oni, weekends go out etc etc... I do not have any pocket money! Nahh... jus work hard, earn $ for my sch stuffs and for entertainment and get out of the sch, study dip, nie, etc... and work, and die... this is my life... a sad life...

haiz, well, at least, i've my dearest frns by my side... and the fellow classmates from my class though they might not read tis... =) Muacks and hUgss