Supposed to be meeting guang for dinner and passed him the meteor garden vcd... but i called it off due to several reasons...

One of it is that, i've to wake up damn early for interview. No, not job interview again, but an interview for my Nitec course. Yes, its Nitec course... Im in a lost ; should i go for the interview not? I dun wan... I'll be wasting time in Nitec too... Someone who is eligible for Polytechnic education going into Nitec, im really looking for trouble myself... I rmb huimin n hongyun saying that Higher Nitec will die die have a vacancy... But the date now is alrdy 22nd of May, and i dun have a single news from the ITE... I dun wish to give up in my application for the Higher Nitec course lorr... Im really in a lost... How?!

Im holding on to an O-level cert, with 7 all passed subjects... And i end up in this f***ing situation... I hate myself to bits and pieces... I've got nothing lorr... Not even the last and only chance to get enrole in to the Higher Nitec course... Can i noe why?

Gotta very emotional at this point of time. Look, since sec4 O-level (which is in 2004) till now, i had alrdy wasted 1 yr plus doing nothing... But, still, i've no regrets leaving and quitting my Diploma in IT...

Hate this realistic world... Everything needs money and certificates... If i've the money, i wont want to waste time in ITE lo... and the results, i've my great ambition to fuifil which i've passion in too. A1 in chinese? Wad's the use... im not good in english, dey jus simply reject my application...

Mood-swing again. Hate me at this point of time... Thinking so much abt those things that will nv happened, and think abt those that had happened and how i can change it... anyonw wanna slap me and wake me up?? im getting crazy again... i wan to be the edelynn or adeline or tianlee that always laugh and joke and get crazy abt stuffs with all my dear frns... i dun wan to hide in the room and think and think...

Well, i cant do anything... i can only wait for each day's arrival and decide what to do... i cant twist and turn those facts that god created and gave me...

sorry... should cheer up... mmm, it had been a few weeks, coming closed to month that i didnt have this emotional moment... the last time was after watching Daisy... Mmmm.. looks like lata i've to get tom yam soup, western food and ice-cream... cuz all these can eventually cheer me up abit; at least it did cheer me up, abit...

Was watching Superband revival round just now... Well, only Jade and Lucify's performace can be watched... -.-" Oh, one thing that atleast cheer me up abit is the piggy soft-toy tat Lucify brought along while singing... hee... lol... reminds me of someone owing me my bday present... so, it did cheer me up abit again.. haha.... (**msg to that someone: hey, i noe u'll be reading this... dun pretend liao... see, even god wans to remind me abt the pig... =p )


k... let me blog abt some happy stuff...

Ytd (21 May, Sunday) went Soup restaurant w guang and des... Mmm, the food quite ok, except that the price can be alittle more reasonable... enjoyed the dinner, =) of course... its soup restaurant... headed to amk jubilee for Poisedo, finally... i finally watch this movie man... But jeffery is late again... sianz, should listent to des by going dere lata... haha... thanks for the jacket anyway, its nice to put on... hee..

after brain-washing... decided to give tomorrow's interview a try... and give myself a try too... Good luck to me... Although the journey will be long, and many pp will be pointing fingers and giving nasty remarks, but, i dun wanna care alrdy... i've a long journey, i will make it an enjoyable and no more regrets and mistakes.

Anyone care to accompany me dere or wake me up?? hee... =)