i- let it go, more relieve - i

Let me start blogging abt sat's trip to espynol... kind of kena force to go de... haha... well, no la, since i noe i'll be sianz n tink too much to stay at home, so... go lorr...

pretty moody tat day... keep thinkin n thinkin... shld i continue or jus give up... drank and drank.. n even pick up cigs... sigh, spolit my image to blog abt it here... but i just cant control myself.. mm but weird, not drunk at all... hah, cried countless times in toilet... hate tat me... so emotional... even talkin on the phone with him, cried too, he realised not? doubt it. cuz i reali pretended real well tat nite... a fake smile... hah...

but well, got very relieve ytd... i've sort out all my tots, n understood wad i reali wan... To be frank, i nv tot of wooing u nor declaring it to u... i just enjoy that moment where i can see you, talk to you, sms with you, etc etc... seeing u happy makes my heart contented, reali... I tot i can hide all this since everything went on so well.. but till tat day, suddenly realise of your coldness, your ignorance... hah, i understood wad i reali wan... is jus that frnship... zhen de...

maybe is i sensitive la... but its real obvious... but ok, we'll always be frn... yea, once a frn, always a frn...

Some ideas for you to declare your love to the guy / gal... if you're shy... ha, but this only applies wen he/she noes it but he/she diam diam...

1. If he/she reads your blog, try to incl in your post "If you're thinking wad im thinkin, pls meet me at blah blah blah on blah blah blah pm"

2. Make a cd with those songs which describes your feelings towards him/her... Eg of songs, lian ai da ren, li xiang qin ren, ji shi zha dan, bu guo yong gan, kai bu liao kou, bu de bu ai, ni bu zai, jiu shi ai, you yi tian wo hui, zhi xiang ai ni, etc etc... haha... den if you're shy to pass to him/her, can drop in his/her letter box..

3. Drop pass to the venue where he/she will be having exam... appear before to wish him/her good luck, but scare lata he/she distracted... so aft ba, but if he/she fail, u muz cheer him/her up and not get upset by his/her sianz face...

Yea, is me who tot all these.. together with baobeii and sister... ahha, the 4th one is sister suggest de... whaha... but no la, just tellin u nia... nv wanna anythi wor... friendly gesture...

yea, went out with baobeii and wenguang ytd... den someone dao lo, nv reply sms.. haha, ok la, now everythi is settle liao, hope no more this kind of silly stuff happens..

actuali meet to go kbox, in the end nv. Den say wanna go tm for movie, in the end changed to j8, den in the end nv watch. den sianz, change so many location, den in the end, we went take LRT... haha... my virgin LRT ride man... haha... got so many funny incidents dere, like 3 crazy ppl who jus came out from the woodbrige... -.-

well, i understand myself... at tis point of time, aft so many heart-breakin experience, i jus wanna a frnship, cuz it last and is very stable kinda.. xmas breakup had made myself soooo lost... hah, enough... edelynn is still the same edelynn, no worries and i'll continue my adventure searching for my prince, who dotes me love me and care for me, and sing feng for me... whaha...

no tears liaoo... yea, great ~ 987, i succeeded...

dun fall for the guy, let the guy falls for you...