today is april fool... and indeed... its my day... a day for those fools... hah...

mood now is terribly moody...shuper sianz... i blog ah blog... blog 3/4 liao,den this blogger windows suddenly say "sayonara, happy april fool" to me,and kena closed. Argh... wad the hell, its like $*?@! .......Mmm, maybe God think i shouldnt publish it ba... hah...??

well, ya la... den lidat... i give up lorr, i dun blog abt tat story... since everything is created in tis manner...

real moody... real real moody...anyone can let me hug?? suddenly very lost... cuz i noe, something will be differerent liao from today onwards.... i'll make it different la... ehh, 987 ah....i break tat new year promise liao la...tis time tis promise i'll just keep to myself... wen i succeed den i say ... if not i keep on breaking promises...

but seriously i nv wanna break these promises de k... if i can have a choice, i of course wanna change over to a optimistic, happy go lucky gal...with no worries, can *uck care wadever happen...but i just... sorry la... sorry to myself... my soul makes my body tired... makes myself feel so jialet... is myself who caused all unnecessary prob...u see, everytime think so much...sianz... now think until i headach... im jus kind of pissed off by myself... sorry baobeii and sister,for wasting so much of your precious time over that stupid useless discussion... sorry kor for being stubborn nv listen to your words of advise.. sorry if i had caused u to be unhappy abt tis matter... but seriously,i nv wan things to happen tis way...

well, if someone someone whom i hurt before read tis, i can tell u, god is giving a retribute to me...n wanna me to receive it 2x,or 3x,or even 10Xs...


the main actress in "my girl and i" once thanked the main actor for "giving her only beautiful memories"..... hah,i went home and think... do ihave any experience in rs where dere's oni beautiful memories??? well, no sad memories means no much happy memorable memories... den i realise lorr... if it wasnt my reluctance to let go and give up those relationship, i may be left with a more happy-memories-only relationship... Hah, wen his feelin fade, wanna end , no matter hw much u love tat guy, its of no use... ppl love to use tis phrase wad... shi ni de jiu shi ni de...

well anyway, tks for those who makes me smile... altho it fades off so fast... ha.. pai seh, tomorrow, tomorrow i'll be tat crazy scb edelynn again de...


another enlightening phrase, mm,or rather discouraging la... ah qiang said this to me before, wen im 16 yrs old : "You must learn how to take care of yourself, love yourself (don let ownself so emotional la... cuz its like anemotional abuse) before you can love him" ........


picx to post...



someone said tis is nice wor... haha...



So sweet... but wen it rains,it reminds me of dec9... hah... sigh...



My bao gui de star earing now oni left one sided...



Cry ah.... T.T




Broken heart is hard to mend...


My hp number kena listed in this website.... wth.. those who are free,kpos, or dun believe,can visit this url... ---> http://www.teckinart.com/contact.htm


Just finish with personality test... http://www.quizbox.com
den my result is... (extrated):

You are very serious about relationships
aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like.
If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
You are afraid of failure .
like privacy very much
You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions

.Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

In cab now... Yea, its true tat im in cab now.. Finally e cab arrive.. Oh no, i'm reali late... Wad e hell so many pp waiting for cab n i muz walk all e way up to cut queue.. Ha... Bad rite? My no choice even i on call cab aso no use... All operators are busy.. Nah, wad happened..,
Mmm.. Had been tinkin abt e prob again n again.. Ytd chatted a 6hrs phone conversation with baobeii n sister.. Ha.. N dey muz have reali admire my imagination... Creative yet, unrealistic.. Hehe... I've alot of tots, but i just don dare to execute.. Cuz im reali reali afraid of rejection.. E heartach feelin simply sucks.. Eekss.. N i'll cry myself to bed.. Ah.. I myself scare for tat too.. Scold me ba, i've no guts de.. After so many failure n let downs.. I just hope nothi ever happen..
To be continued.. Cuz i reach my destination..

wake up in a sianz mood... hope can slp somemore but... i cant... hah...

someone lost me a bet... a treat to kbox... i'll rmb it... say liao lorr, my intution seldom wrong one... hah, kbox cine closes at 6... =x

monday went movie with baobeii,guang, and meph... ha, watched 'My Girl and I'... touching show... but the touching screens not up to my expectation... tot it'll be more touching and will let me cry more... ha... so, till down the most touching movie for me is still ' A moment to remember'... aft movie, left me, guang and baobeii.... we went to CAN cafe... nice place to chill out... plus i worked dere before... hah, the following is a funny things we found out... mm, just copy paste from guang's blog... lol...

listen to the song tat played... its quite an old song, bUt, its pretty nice... if u've chance, go thru the mv aso... touching...

haiz, today slept at 7am... but 10+ wake up alrdy... i cant sleep... think insonmia... maybe if it carries on, i shld consult the doctor for some sleeping pills... hah, this prob reali happen for pretty long... dun have regualr sleeping hrs... some days i can sleep the whole 24 hrs... some day, i can dun sleep at all, or just sleep for 3 hrs, jus like today... n today is the worst, wake up having headace... oh my, i still tot last nite i went drinking or wad, but wen i recall, no lehz, i din touch any alcohol at all... and the headace stayed with me for a hour plus, struggle in bed... omg... worst, i cant find any panadols in my hse! hah, no choice, swallowed 2 panadols for cold n fever, cuz it indicated tat it stops aching or any other pain... nah, bu hui si de lahz...

ytd had pepper lunch with baobeii again... oh my... n the job of 10% discount... haha, collect 10 coupons and u can redeem a discount of 100%... xiang de mei... =P was dere with baobeii, baobeii's idiot, guang and his frn... hah, baobeii!!! i wan prawn noodle without prawn, and coffee without powder! lol...

aft tat, went meph's plac for mahjong... hah, quite stress to play with em, cuz im just a 1st stage - beginner, while the rest are 2nd, 3rd stage.... aga aga i noe how to play la, but no skill... =x the last time i've my mahjong session is 2005 cny, at my ex's hse... imagine... im alittle rusty... dun blame me for my slow reaction... den, changed over to play black jack... hah, it reminds me of tat time at partybox... playin with mable, ryan n nicholas... mmm, jus let me briefly descripe the incident... everythi went smoothly, den i "dao4", reshuffle, mable being the "zhuang1 jia1" gonna banh banh (2As)... den the next time i reshuffle, she gonna 5 cards not exceeding 21... oh... can imagine wad others say abt me.. haha... n if im not wrong, tat day is the day where i noe jovi, meph n guang... hah... den ytd's game was, wen im zhuang1 jia1, one of e game more than 1 player got baih luck lor... haiz.. but quite fun la, den end up playin in-between... hah...

mm, sometimes somthings are better to avoid, n not known... if ytd i din avoid his call, my mood will be kind of gone~~~ ha..

started to wake up my senses of the imperfection in this world... to many of us, the most perfect story tat we heard of are those fairy tales.. but, we forgot something... dere're still some malevolent content in it... dere're still witches and cruel guys in the story... perhaps our life are just like those fairy tales ba, will meet those unkind ppl, having evil plans on us, but, in the end of our story, we'll be having nice ending as well... n its the same for human life, now we're still in the half way of the story, still dunno wad's the ending will be ah... :) Besides, everything will change... those nice things will change, and bad things will change too... We oni rmb those changes like the one who loved us bian xin, fall in luv with others, but, many times we forgot abt those who dun love us initially, started to develope feelings for us... Just like caterpillar, its metamorpohsis into a beautiful butterfly... Time files, things changed... changed its look, its size, its characteristic too... and i admit, i've changed too... :) appreciate our daily lives ba!

saw the survey thingy too... hah, whos 987 or 789 huh... its the same person ba... well, i respect your decision of not letting me noe who-are-you, but im kind of surprise wen u say im bold... haha... anyway tks...

Before everything starts, pls visit this url... hmm, 3 mins? do a little survey for me, nv cuz u alot of time de... :) tks -->> http://kevan.org/johari?name=edelynn

Long din update post.. Mayb 1week alrdy ba.. Mmm, basically, i dun have much thing to say, n dunno wad i can say... Yea, bloggin is a very personal thing.. N i used to be very straight forward with words, even though i knew someone who i may offend read it.. Bu pa si.. But now, due to someone, i just wan to keep somethi to myself..

Last sat, 18 march 2006, marks an extraordinary day.. Filled with sadness, shock and.. A little bit of fear... Well, shouldnt enclose em here... But i muz reali reali thanks wenguang n meph or going down to ttsh.. Some pp will just don care, moreover u guys got events.. Ah.. Only can thank u n keep apologising.. N apologise to all my dear frns... I appreciate e understandin tat u all have huh.. Reali..

Now, no more partybox.. Kind of sad n cant bear.. My 1yr in partYbox.. Ya, seriously, its 1yr in exact.. Coincident or fated... I joined e partybox family, on 18march 2005 under christine.. N on 18mar 2006 marks partybox's last day.. Ha.. In this 1yr, i reali had a great change.. Physically n emotionally.. Became matured too.. :) quiet 17yrs old who keep quiet throughout became a little more talkative wen she met her 1st frn in partybox.. Sweetheart.. Followed by bell, novem.. Altho was attached at tat moment, her heart still flies around.. Ha.Many guys are by her side at tat time wor, but those guys are just little housefly.. =X

Aft e breakup on mid july, edelynn continues going down to partybox regularly, even wen she's off... Reason - drink - as drinkin can make her forget those unhappy past which makes her cry...
Wad abt those little houseflies? Continued to fly around her, showered her with sweet.Talks...
Many waitress come n go... Many disputes, unhappiness, and arguments... Edelynn leaved partybox once.. But came back again.. Ha... E place is full with so much memories.. So many houseflies.. Vin, jim, andy, deniel, jackson, william, johnson, weijie, alex, fx, cy, jm, etc etc.. E list goes on.. Haha..

N wen i lost phone, it reali teaches me a lesson, n enlighten me.. Wen lost k700i,it teaches me how to identify who are e houseflies, whose name are just stored under e contact list but not for contactin each other.. N wen i lost 6230, i noe, e one closest to u might be e one saboing u, betrayin u..

Too much memories.. From loving someone till kena love... Slowly know how to differniate between truths n lies.. N noe e impt of realistic... My fairy tale story had ended... N i noe e promises n dramatic stories i heard wasn't true, at all... Yea, wad sweetheart said was correct.. Abt e story of dao ming si.. Haiz, these guys reali, low-class.. =x now aso noe how to quitely admiring someone, quietly look at him, observe him, n find out more things abt him... hee... its kind of a sweet thing... but, nv let him affect your mood... cuz its another terrible thing..

Love have has something to do with 'realistic'... Trust, tolerance n sincere... May those readin my blog now find one soon.. N those alrdy found, appreciate it... Nv give one u love or love u a chance to get a hurt.. Cuz love is a very beautiful thing... Friendship n bgr... Frns, i cherish u lots! :)

Partybox go into history, but all e stories, lessons n memories will always be left in my heart, n mind..

Somethi to share abt my black 18 sat, before going down to partybox, went cp with baobei... N lata on, watched "Date Movie" with meph, wenguang n eddy.. Wad i wan share isn't how nice e show is.. But how lucky i am.. Ha.. Firstly, i drop one side of my favourite star-shaped earing.. Secondly, (this matter i din told e guys present.. Its kind of.. Gal's thing, but i just share it here la to let u noe hw bad.luck i am) e button of my jeans bottom came off.. Ha.. E one above your zip, not pocket one nor for design..Its e one u button, aft u zip.. Well if i'm with a belt den its ok, but.. Lucky i still have a hair clip to clip on it.. Thanks god.. But its not e end u noe, my shoe's stripe came off while walkin from meridien to cine.. I always have these unlucky thing with me.. Gosh, wad's wrong with me huh.. Within 2h, these 3 unlucky stuff strikes on me.. Black 18.. Ha.. N aft it was e phone call thing.. Ah.. Left tat aside la huh since everythi settled..

well, i asked myself, is this the kind of life i wan? no education, no job, no bf, i've got nothing at all.... is this the life i wan? Of course, my answer is a straight NO. so, im gotta carry on workin hard... till i reach my expectation of the kind of life i wan...

some picx uploaded for wad happened onm 09.03.2006, my 18th bday...





pretty scry rit... to see the broken glasses lying on the ground lidat ... and my wound is.... bandaged like a.... hah, no comments abt it... just blame myself for being too unlucky...


hmm.... had another declaration jus now... oops, i just dun like him... cuz i reali just take him as a good frn... nothin else more than a frn... and besides, i've someone else in my mind alredy... so...

next, saw chengxi of staridol at bencoolen's kopitiam ytd, while having supper with sharon, alvin n danny... he's jus so shy... haha.. im jus kind of excited... lalala... saw him... with his green mexico jacket tat he used to wear.... if he's leo lam, den mayb i'll get crazy ba.. haha....

A touching and scary 18th
bday

im 18 now! wha.... 9march over liao, and tks all guys who attended the gathering at partybox... hmm, sorry if i din "entertain" u much, and if u feel left out... real sorry, but i realii appreciate u for attending!

actually started on 7th march... christine came down, with sharon, sunny, kevin and gred... had my vagine waterfall... it taste alittle sweet la... n i oni can keep on swallowing ice-water... to prevent the alcohol level from increasing... drank 2 teq orange, 1 lychee 7up (ryan's recommand), 2 baileys (my fav) and 2 teq pop... teq pop is reali gross! yuckks... but ok lah, still maintain my consciousness... lol... den went on to club este... n went up to the stage... wha.. tks for christine n sharon... =p

8th march celebration... so glad that onii 1 put aeroplane, the rest turn up... hee... edison, ck, ray, cheryl, xinyi, daniel, ah hua, kenneth, vincent, sweetheart, jasmine, stanley, hanqiang, faith, darryl, jinyi, steve, taylor, hansheng, emily, danny, jason, andy, guang, meph... etc.... so long din see partybox filled in with so many ppl on a weekday liaoo... glad... =) celebration goes on... but... accident happened...

went into the hospital... SGH... its realii scary lor... the automatic glassdoor of paradiz center basement, drop off.... crushed into pieces... Imagine, the whole door came off... made of glass... but thanks God, i oni hurt my thumb... although the bleedin is quite severe that im forced to kena admit into a hospital... but im alrdy very, very much lucky already... For ppl who's not present, either in the scene or the party itself, will guess that im drunk n cant see the transparent glassdoor... but mind you, if i reali cant see and bang into it, my head n face, body too, will be GONE...

the first person i seen, aft the incident, was ryans... argh... karen den sent me to hospital... ooh, the blood jus keep dripping down... to the wrist... oooh.. it reali hurts, but its more scary...

but later, wen i went back partybox to collect my presentssss, i got to noe that there's someone who witness everything... he said, i jus my hand touched the glassdoor, den it came off...

the glassdoor is very fragile but itself... wad if is a kid touching it? he/she may not be able to step backwards in time... im pretty lucky alrdy...

this is my best bday present ba... *shrug*

zi lian de wo... hehe...

new picx uploaded...

Very moody right now at this point of time. ive not recovered from ytd... jus saw his blog... oh, so much thing happened to him, but he just keep it from me... maybe is not by intention, but obviously he dun wann share with me... i wont noe wad happen to him at all if i din read his blog... but he dint disclose wad actually happened to him la... to me, i always understand tat he had another gal in his mind... but i had never thought tat im jus a so-called fair-weather friend of his... wo zai ta xin zhong yi dian special de di wei ye mei you... zhi shi yi ge hen pu tong de friend...

emm... another thing... i've actually FOUND OUT who TOOK my phone the other day wen i was drunk. well, i noe its my own fault for not lookin aft my phone and drank so terribly much... but who the hell will imagine tat "person" will eventually pick up my phone and keep it into her own pocket? just like u normally places your footwear outside your house, the next day u leaves home for work den u realised its missing... im just so much disappointed in her lorr... looked aft me so well wen i was drunk and even called me the next day to see if im fine... hah..

How i noe its my phone and not the case of similar phone? nah... the marks i've made if u wanna deny n claim tat im forgetful or misunderstood, ive got nothing to say... the special feels ive wen i hold the phone, i can keep it in my heart, and take it tat myself is being over-sensitive... But, who the hell will dl absoulty the same games as yours?? monopoly, puzzle bobble, etc, big2 garden... so coincident? i doubt it... but, one thing tat i saw with my own eyes proven me something, and i just kept quiet, took one last glance at her, and walked off... I renamed my game folder in my menu as "you le yuan", in chinese characters... u still wanna say tis is out of coincidence??

no one will ever tot the person next to u, talkin to u, laughing with u, lookin aft u will be the one who makes u cry, suffer, n hate... she isnt sorry ba... still guang ming zheng da brings the phone to partybox... well, i noe this is online blog, many ppl will be viewing it... but, if i realii made a mistake of misunderstood her, den i'll apologise, sincerely... but now, i saw it wth my very own eyes... nothing is going to be coincident till this way ba... I noe her friend will be reading this, and i noe maybe she'll read this too... Since i post my blog this way, im not afraid her to see it. Moreover, im the victim. Same thing applies for her, since she dares to bring it back to partybox and let me see it, den she must prepare herself tat the owner will see it...

100 dollars?? if only the phone still contains me n shaun's picx n smses...

that nokia old flip phone cant compare to the present 7610 im using now... but, wad matter most to me is the memories i kept there... the sweet smses, the nice picx we've taken, his fav songs, etc... so much so much... 100$ im willing to pay lor... provided those sms and picx are still dere... cried like crazy last nite.... ytd i drop my vagine-tears in 2006... the one who stole my beautiful memories is actually someone i see nearly everyday... can imagine my feeling? but thanks to meph, hah, i boomed his hp with sms... actually not alot la... jus 2 msg whith 5 pages... and sweetheart, di yi shi jian listent to my latest news... =)

suspected tat both of em helped her too, but without evidence i dun wan say anything... Since things are over, den let it be... no point askin her... a price to pay, for my naiveness and easily to believe others attitude... nah... i rather i dunno the truth, rather i've not seen anything... i'll oni remain quiet and act stupid... but one thing for sure, my smile wont be put up for em always, anymore...

went bendemeer sec with baobeii on sat, to watch footdrill competition, but it seems like we've got nothing back in return... but jus some scary moment... baobeii took picx with my phone, n she claim tat there's someone behind watching over her. oh. i dun dare to watch... ah... n we jus leave the place immediately.

3 more days to 18th yrs old... true, like wad i told diamond, 18th yrs old is jus a number where ppl counts how old u've been living in this world... and 18 is jus a legal age where u can enter a clubbing area, smoke, drink, etc etc... same thiing for 21, where u can walked into the cinema watching RA shows... so, my 18th bday got no special meaning to anyone... life still goes on, for me, for u, and for everyone else...

aft the celebration, and the going-out with friends, i'll be back to a lonely me again...

got a something to share... to find out meaning of your name. mmm, its something for you to do, cuz i noe u'll be bored... =X

Instructions: What you do is find out what each letter of your name means. Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.
PS: If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.

For Example my name: TIANLEE
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
I - You are always smiling and making others smile
A- You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
E - You are a very exciting person.
E - You are a very exciting person.
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A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgmental.
I - You are always smiling and making others smile.
J - Jealously
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physique and looks.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone

true?? hehe... ya, i jus realise i slowly develop a so-called "attitude"... alittle thing either a remark or some minor nasty thing i'll show a sour face, n dun treat tat person well... hah, but for those ppl who din offend me, i'll be extremely nice n sweet to em, showing em SMILE... ha...

Something else i wanna share to those born in march too..

MARCH
Attractive personality
Affectionate
Shy and reserved (yup, im shy to those i like)
Secretive
Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
Loves peace and serenity
Sensitive (totally TRUE!)
Loves to serve others (motto of my cca Redcross... haha)
Not easily angered (not easily angered by those i noe for quite long)
Trustworthy
Appreciative and returns kindness
Observant and assess others
Revengeful (haha... am i??)
Loves to dream and fantasize (YES!)
Loves travelling (yup...)
Loves attention (.......)
Hasty decisions in choosing partners
Loves home decors
Musically talented
Loves special things
Moody (thumbs up)

the rest left for you guys to judge... do tag me n let me noe... mmm, den if u guys wanna a description of your owe month's, can feel free to let me noe too!

today sunday liao... oh, i still have the last 4 more days in my 17s... whaha... celebration in 3 days time... mmm, still quite pissed off by those who gives lame "excuses" for not turning up... hah... next time...

1. dont give reasons like u gonna wake up very early for work... bao beii 5am need wake up for attachment... wads dere to compare abt...? jus speak up, honestly, n tell me, u dun wanna come... (ok la, if u those kinds tat i can see u nearly everyday, den im ok with u... )but if u're those tat i 2 or 3 yrs din catch up with u liao... den... spending 2 hours mean nothing ba??! im not asking u to come n dawn...

2. dont tell me u're going overseas or not in spore... unless u goes for work or is an air stewardess! (365 days, u muz pick 8th march 9th march to go overseas.... fengshui said my bday is a day to go overseas?!)

3. i'll accept reasons like... "end work late... n have to wake up early to work...." altho no much difference from the first one, but... i feels that its more SINCERE lorr...

4. exams, tests OK...

5. working nite shift... Hah, no choice... accepted

6. some little lame reasons like... "i dunnno your frns..." hah. ya, altho they're ppl coming alone on tat day, but i respect this reasonn.. i wont wanna go down alone n the bday boii/ bday ger sure no time to entertain me... so, i understand. i accept.

7. an apology, an early bday wish... or a very fake "next time meet u den i pass u your bday present" tat seems sincere, can be accepted.

8. but dun forget dere'll some ppl who are very on and steady de la... haha.. promised long ago even before i confirm... but, the last thing is to dun put aeroplane in the last minute la..

Mmm, received my 1st 18th bday present.. a letter from nie, regarding my application of dipolma in chinese studies... no much comments abt the letter... but jus feel alittle naive of myself... nah, i'll futhur my studies no matter wad... n i'll try my very best to fuifil my dreams n ambition...

heard sweet talks from him... dun like it... i wan action n not the words... nahh, guys mouth is make up off honey... blehz... i like my him who's so shy always...lol..

my ideal bf... is someone who cares n dotes me, cares for how i feel, and if im tired aft work... someone tat accept me for who im, and is faithful to me... me, and oni me...

my prince... the prince in my dreams... assemble both internal n external factors... someone who looks cute, presentable or shuai... looks mature enuff as compared to his actual age, but looks boyish enuff if he's quite old... tall n have a nice hair-style... have a charming smile like leo lam, nice personality like sun xie zhi.. mmm, a broad shoulder tat is warmth n tuck me in wen im sad... matured, no childishness... always dere wen im sad, makes my moody day into a sunny one, n makes my sunny days more sunny!

sounds alittle unrealistic? yup, as wad i've wrote... the prince in my dream ma... blehzz...

ya, n a big NO NO NO... to those who is small size as compared to me... haha, i dun wan to look like a giant!

to me, first impression reali counts... if i like him, den i'll be totally committed... simple... n if i dun have a very good first impression, wadever he do or say, i'll jus get pissed off... No one is perfect in this world, till u in love with someone, n he / she will be the most perfect person in the world. if it is so, u'll aso accept wadever he/she is, appreciate him/her like how ladies treasure diamonds (intalic words are wad he told me b4 *sad* ). So u wont ask the person to change n suits you, instead, u'll feel alittle worried tat u're not compatible with the person n change yourself somehow to suits him/her.

Dont believe the phrase "forever love"... nah, even if dere is... it wont happen to me too... my unrealistic dreams i guess no one can tahan ba... actually they are all jus my thinkings, i nv expect myb partner to assemble them... n i wont be complaning if he din assemble it... i'll be very much happy n appreciate the presence him... he's my bf, my darling, not the prince in my dream. i nope it clearly.

Latest news in sgss... a sec1 guy proposed to a sec1 girl in class during valentines day. wha, sec1s lehzz... romantic? i jus see it as an immature act... hmm, actually sometimes, being realistic is something romantic n sweet too.. jus like its more realistic to tell your partner "l like u alot" than "i love u forever.... " for me, i love u is sweet la, but fake too... humans are complicating ppl... esp girl like me... buy green jacket, but wanna purple jacket too.. looks nice, but dont suits me... heart still alittle itch.

forever love... i believe its present in mayb a corner of the world...?? ok la, wadever thingy is fated de.. ya, but u've got to act too... cant sit down n wait for the durians to fall... so... go out n reach your him/her...! dun cuz scare fall down den forever sit down, dun wanna learn how to walk.. u noe hor, if u walk, u'll get to sit nice scenery...

hmm... saw a necklance in cine... its a normal necklance but the pendent is a key... very long, with some diamonds... woah, so nice.. imagine, a guy give u, and tell u... "tis is a key for u, to excess to my heart" wa... sweet la.. but obviously is sweet talk oni... ha, i wan it, but bao beii say muz wait till 21 den can buy... haiz... sadded... still have 3 more years to go..

saw tis necklance at citigems ad... so nice... hah, den the ear-ring, i rmb i saw it somewhere before, of nearly the samw design, but... is a necklance... hah...

well, just now went see guang's blog... ooh, the song is soo sad, mei you ni de mei yi tian... tis song i've listened before, hmm, mayb tat time wen i listent, im still in love, so, din feel sad... today, i've got a total different feelin aft listenin... MOODY... suddenly feeel so sad again... hah, the days without him... is like the song lorr... n aft listent to let, my playlist plays nin mong cao de wei dao, wen, shi zuo yong zhe.... etc... all the sad songs... whaa, from sad to more sad... EMOTIONAL... Guang, if u readin tis, i muz say, your blog makes me cry!! ah...no la, im okiss... =) jus moody... blehz...


mixture of 3 songs... from my heart... can u identify?
突然我记起你的脸那触动依然像昨天
想起如果没有遇见你想起从前爱你的甜言蜜语
曾以为你是全世界但那天已经好遥远
毕竟用尽了力气也未必如愿总是要过去以後才了解
我们都没错只是不适合 亲爱的我当时不懂得
用微笑告别以後这一刻後彼此要擦身而过
没有你的每一天
快乐离我好遥远
放下一切让你走就这样不再联络
多年後时间不再紧凑你我的以後也不再拼凑
爱情始作俑者不是谁没有谁错又或谁对不再害怕面对
若我们再见我会微笑
谢谢你谢谢你我嚐过爱的好
谢谢你曾经爱过我
给我最美的经过

bday in 6 days time... feel like seeing him... hah,he's bday i was with him... my bday im all alone... sadden... will he rmb 9march is my bday??

hmm... jus made some changes to my layout again... a song will be played wen u view tis window... ha, i was aso from IT okis... so tis basic web design i noe de okis... haha... althou my blog skin actuali is no music, no sounds but now i added some colors onto it liao.. hehe... den... on the right side, got my profile, den my songs... wha, the abouve 3 songs inside the song list got... u just have to click on to the title n... tis blog will be gone... whaha.. bo la, the media player will play the song lorr, n u wont see my blog liao... hmm, i noe can make it appear in another window de.. but, i forgot the quote... =x mayb i'd read my lecture notes again... hmm... the songs not new la... but, it reali suits my mood now...

din sleep real well... sleep in 4am, 8am wake up liao... whaha... sianz, den lata aftnoon going back sch... argh, tomor muz wake up early... go see competition... hope today wont be boring day lorr... =)

gotta turn 18 in a few days time... hee.. kinda excited.. but mayb ppl bday aso approachin wor... hah, many ppl asked me wad i wan for my 18th bday... emm, tis is jus a short list of "guideline" la... actually anythi i get as long as it is from the bottom of your heart n is out of your sincerity, i'll luv it n appreciate it very much...

1. if i have a bf... hah, i wan him acc me throughout the day... i start my celebration on 8th ma... from frns gathering to partybox... den hopefully the aft tat he'll acc me to east coast... to see stars and enjoy the cooling air of the seas... how romantic... den follow by the 9th nite, we've a dinner at kallang river dere... woah, i been dere once, luv the atmosphere... if is candle-light dinner lehz, den it'll be the best moment of my life ba... (oops, i started to dream liao...) den he give me a dozen of purple rose, with lavender.... actually those plastic-made roses i dun mind too... cuz it LASTS, and aso a HUGE my melody doll... whaha... i simply luv My Melody to bits... hee...
2. but so sad, i got no bf... i wanna somethi more realistic la... to enjoy the 8th celebration with all my frns, buddies, baobeii, sweethearts, kors, sis out dere... for those whos not dere, some are forgivable, but some.... emm, i jus dunn wanna comment who la... but its jus out of your sincere if u wanna come anot.. 1 year 365 days, u cant sacrifice the day or rather jus a couple of hours to come? nah, den forget it... my bao beii havin her attachment needed to wake up at 5am aso come liao... den the rest... aiyah, its your choice la, whether u see it as a "celebration" or jus a boh liao day wishin ppl happy bday...
3. Unrealistic gifts: N70, digital cam, personal lap-top,mp3 players... whaha... jus some unrealistic gifts... =p

Aiya, above are jus some silly little guidelines la huh... the main thingy is your presence on that day n if u enjoyed...

Lets moved on to other topic...

it seems that im not one of the shortlisted candidate for the olevel chines teacher thingy... im not jus disappointed, but very sad too... but i always hide it in my heart, n tell my friends "aiya, den nvm lorr"... actually i reali hate it wenever ppl ask me wad im doing in the day-time, studying? haiz, wad can i do den? ITE? not poly again of course, for some very personal reason... argh, mayb is jus ITE or i start to work liao lorr... But, i wanna STUDY! or, should i take my olevel english again? nahz... no difference too.... i guess i'll apply for relief teachin first... den take a step first before makin any conclusion...

Seems so near with the guy i like huh.. but.. he've another gal in his heart la... i noe i cant "outstand" her.... argh, mayb give me more time? for us to noe each other longer, so tat last time's mistake wont repeat again... i can jus ask his frn to help me, but, dont wan la... i dun wan his frn to hav the thinkin tat "i make use of em to....." or "am i real serious" kind of thinkin... he's my li xiang qin ren, but i dun think hui you wo de fen!