ppl say wen u lost somethi den u noe hw impt tat thing is to u... ya... for those frns who had read my prev blog noes abt cat who makes tiramisu... n should have doubt my luv for lemon ba... but nw i understand, is who im in luv with deeply... is lemon... is not cat... cat is jus a passerby who failed to declared the luv he had n my luv for him... its not tat he's great tat he nv makes me cry, but is jus tat i've nothin to cry abt... can jus say all my attention is with lemon ba... wen cat din return my call or sms, i jus let it goes... but fro lemon, i'll feel sad cuz i reali cares... ytd was the 2nd time wher he ask us to end the relationship... break down... its the 2nd time... wad happen to us?!! i always tot he's a xmas present tat god gaves... Mayb now god wants it back.. tats y he'll ask to talk abt our prob aft xmas..

i tot i could be sooo strong to jus agree with him to go sep ways but i cant... i dunno why is dere water keep drippin and fallin from my eyes dwn my cheeks... i wonder if dere're tears.. im confuse.. he did replied me aft tat n suggest us to talk abt it aft xmas... i cant do anyth but to agree... but im tinkin... If at tis point of time i still have the right to call him dear anot? i hesistate if i'd post up tis blog anot... wad others will comment on him... ppl say he's not a good guy.. but i believe him utterly... i wanna cry out down... i wanna hug him n cry... i wan to wake up from tis xmas nitemare... tis is the worst terrible xmas i ever had...

Jenn was still tellin me 1 week ago tat i wasnt ever got a lonely xmas.. last yr have guanda n tis yr have shaun... nw i've nothing... i jus wish to say at home alone n cry all my hearts out... let me cry ba... i dunno wad's happenin with him.. izzit the stress n tired of work? or the sick n tired of me? WAD EXACTLY HAPPEN???!

Jane commented tat she sees me cry more than i smile... sorry ger, im afraid u're alittle wrong... wen we're togeth we nv quarrel... its all kai kai xin xin n tian tian mi mi de... deres oni tis 2 time wen he makes me cry.. oni 2 times....

argh... jus scold me naive or stupid ba... but i'll wait...

lemon n lime are fruits... neither of which are bein put into the wrong box by mistake... its my choice... its my decision... i've no regrets...

wad i wan for xmas WAS a big melody for me to hug to slp... or a dozen of bear flower... u noe those flower but not flower, its bear??? or a purple-gold ring or necklace... but nw.... i jus wan him to be back with me... no meet up i can tahan... but at least dun let a simple phone call be so cold... i reali luv him to a state where i cant control...