10.19.2005!
HandWritten on; 10:17 PM
im bck again, finally... he came bck liao... disappeared but bck... was around 11+ on lina's bday, last tues, n im so ignorant by his on-and-off, so i pretended n asked him coldy "who are you" despite knowin his jm... hmm... he said hes down to paradiz but din go partybox cuz he din see me inside, he was i kbox instead... its true, cuz noel did see him wandering outside... he asked me down to kbox... n his persistence touched me, once again... went down, n kept totally quiet dere oni laughed at their laughters n joke... woah... he was like nothin ever happen kinda... din say anyth... but kip praising my singin... sang "wo bu nan guo" woah, is like singin to him lidat.... lolz... den sang "ai duo shao zao zhi dao" while he sang "jie kou" ... candice n junyang... u get my meaning?he sent me home, n he alight from the cab... silly him rite, waste $$... but, $$ to him isnt a prob... we den end up talkin in shelther behind my x's block...he told me his story... he's a real-life dao ming si.... rich, din eat at coffee shop or hawker center... nv take bus before.... n worst, force to b toget wit a gal by the means of his parents as dey like her alot n their parents noe wach other...hmm... aft fin talkin we end up talkin on the phone... ha... i nv imagine my luv life will get complicated till lidat... nv... yes, i do like him still jus like b4, n he too... but... next day... he was drunk... he told me a shockin news, but im well-prepared le... he gotta get married sooon... hah... wad can i say den? its reali too dramatic...he's a normal guy but with dao ming si bground, im of shancai bground but w/o her courage -- jus like jolin in the Hi Working Girl... n her gf is like xiao you lidat... but with angel in MVP Valentine's character... hah... will seek out or do anyh jus wanna him stay with her...im jus like a 3rd party... met him secrectly... n last nite worst, even held hands... but, i've my ku zhong... see the story? liang ge xiang ai de ren dan mei you ke nen zai yi qi... held hands not cuz wanna tin of gettin toget but kip it as a memory... before ppl say i snatch ppl's husband... well, im jus gettin emotional nw... hvn cry yet... so no worries k! jus feel ugly abt this realistic world... i noe, even if we're reali togeth, we'll face alot of obstacle aso... our family bground... haiz... jus can let nature take course n wish each other happy ba...
