9.09.2005!
HandWritten on; 4:40 AM
wad'd i ssay leh?? drink alot on wed, but my mind is still pretty clear. a 20 yrs old kid threaten me wor... i dunnno wad e hell how cum i became so dare... hmmm, mayb is cuz i've been thru alot le, whether my future shucks or bright, i've alread lost somethin which i valued... u noe, the somethin already sank deep into the ocean, i cant find it liao... even if i've find it, its already not mine... see, my life so meaningless wad else will i care?!
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went kbox with jim, and at there, i decided...give him a chance... i oni noe he reali dotes me alot... n i reali need someone to dote me... i dunno abt myself... but seriously, believe me, i wont play with anyone's feeeling...
but so sad... i reali dunno wad kind tis fcking fate is created by god... saw him today on the bus, jus as i tot i can start with my new fresh life... i saw him... wad thing drag me to board on the bus? to chase aft the bus n the driver waiting for me.. i can easily board on the one behind... argh! lao tian, pls stop playin with ppl's fate liao can?!??!? makes me cried out all my hearts n lungs... reali sadded... honestly la, since tis is a blog, i aso dare to write tis out le la... "i started to tin... if acceptin jim is reali a right choice... hmmm... i hvn 100% forget him lor... izzit abit unfair for jim?" i dunno... i dunno wad answer... jus let me stop here...